phobia cinta...

assalamualaikum and hello there...

i dont have philophobia, i've agliophobia..

what phobia is that?? hmmm... i dont know, i only have ranidaphobia and musophobia...
philophobia is the fear of falling in love or fear of love..
agliophobia is the fear of pain or being hurt.

well, in that case i've agliophobia too then. i still remember a friend of mine tell me that ' never fall in love, fall off the bridge, it hurts less'. i dont know about it. never fall in or off anything. so, when i do, i'll let you guys know. but it is true if we was hurt so deeply by someone we love so much, we'll tend to hurt other too as revenge? hmmm....

the thing is nobody is perfect. the person you love before is not the same as the new on. maybe she/he is not meant for you. just accept the fact that something are just not meant to be. right now i feel that it is very easy to say because i've never been in the situation. hmmmm... not really, i've seen the person that i love so much get hurts. all i know is when someone really loves you, they will never hurt you. and if they do, you'll see that in their eyes.... they are hurting too. that what i know and i know it for sure!

if you love someone, tell that person. if that person dont love you, you got nothing to lose. just let go. if it comes back, that's how you know that it meant to be yours forever. if it's not then just go to the nearest store and buy chocolate and eat them! hehehehe....

frust punya pasal....

My mum are my catalys until my last breath....




hari ni tahap frust memang melampaui batas. tak tau kenapa. ok, fine! 
sebab miss Q lapar giler smpai perut starts wat konsert akustik plus tak dapat jawap. bukan tak tau. miss Q tau definition dia. term plak lupa.. ah sudah!! stress oo..... lalu aku bawa diri meninggalkan dewan exam nie.. balik ke ku0 membawa nasi mengisi perut yang syahdu ini... huargh...


so topic kita pada hari nie murid - murid ialah frust, stress, tertekan, kuciwa dan yang sewaktu dengannya.


ok, keluarkan sehelai kertas dan pen (pensil pon boleh)
bayangkan kalau anda stress.. apa yang anda lakukan??  bahagiamanakah anda mengetahui yang anda sedang dilanda cinta stress?? apakah langkah mengatasinya?? dan apakah kesan daripada stress tersebut? karangan hendaklah lebih dari 1000 patah perkataan dan kurang daripada 2000 patah perkataan. waaaaa.... (practise prepare question untuk student nanti)


ha.. ape tunggu lagi?? jawap la.. soalan aras 2 je pon...


so, macam mana miss Q tau yang dia stress??


1. diam.
~ diam miss Q nie ada 2 makna, 1 dia memang malas nak layan sebab sama ada dia ngantuk, lapar atau pon tengah sawan. yang 1 lagi sebab dia marah, stress atau bengang.... biasanye sebab yang no 2 tu.... 
2. conteng.
~ bila miss Q dah start menconteng maknanya dia bosan tapi lebih kepada stress. tengok jugak la ape yang dia conteng tu.
3. nyanyi.
~ yup! menyanyi sebab nak pura2 n buat2 lupa yang dia sedang tekanan.
4.tengok muka.
~ member masa asrama dulu pernah cakap, muka sangap nak tido ko nie mesti sebab ko stress... ha, sape curi biskut ko? cis... ada ke sebab biskut aku nak stress.. tak masal! (tapi memang selalu pon, hahahahaha!!!)
5. announcement
~ saya suka cakap. STREEEEESSSSSS!!!!! hahahahaha.. kadang2 tu saje suke2.. bukan stress pon.. sebab dah tak tau nak sebut ape. kang mencarut kena cili plak. heheheheh... sori kawan2..




next, langkah mengatasinya??


1. mama
~ yang nie memang mujarab. call je mama, even kena marah pon pastu mama mesti wat aku tersenyum. macam tadi. frust sebab blur nk jawap paper discourse. miss Q tau dah mama nak cakap ape. but somehow i know she'll cheer me up. yup, 1 person who never fails to make me smile, my mama. (agak2 klau aku ada anak nanti dapat tak wat macam yang mama buat?? ~sigh~)
2. makan 
~ bukan ape, bila frust je lapar, so makan je la.... biasanya miss Q akan makan mcD, pernah kot duduk lama2 dekat mcD tu makan, then perhatikan orang. sampai abang tu kata dik, kte orang dah nak tutup kedai nie! (ok, part yang tutup kedai tu bongak je!)
3. menjerit.
~yang nie memang soothing giler. best woooo... rasa macam puas je.
4. main hujan
salah satu sebab kenapa saya suka main hujan?? sebab dia best.. hehehehe.... tak jugak. sebab when i'm standing in the rain, no one can see that i'm crying.
5. crying (style latest!!)
~ sem nie la baru develop style nie. aku nie susah nak nangis untuk bende bukan2.but somehow this sem i can easily cry. ada sekali aku nangis sebab aku nak ym mamat tu sebab nak ngadu aku sedih tahap katak tapi dia boleh cakap tak nak! pergh... aku dah la tengah sedih+ stress+ kecewa = syahdu.. dia boleh wat macam tu dekat aku. ha, nangis terus. padahal selalu aku boleh je nak chillex tapi sebab sekarang hati aku nie fragile kan.. nak wat macam ner.
6. tengok bende2 lawak.
tak kira la gambar ke, video ke voice recording ke... janji lawak super saiya!
7. tido!
there will come a day when you'll feel like in hell and you'll want to give up on this life and everything else. when that day arrives, save yourself some trouble and dont do a thing.just take a nap.
it works, you should try!(at least it works on me!).




kesan dia?


1. mula la aku termenung sorang2. just ignore the world. bukan ape, miss Q nie fail anger management dan sarcastic control masa dekat sekolah dulu (kes selalu tukar2 cikgu). kang klau dah termarah ke, tercarut ke atau tertampar ke bukan boleh reverse balik. contoh macam klau kita dah tercakap dekat kawan kita : " eh, mu ni gong la!" ingat senang2 ke nak cakap, " ok aku tarik balik, aku yang gong". hehehehe... si badak boleh la wat macam tu..


2. i'm a better person. i know what makes me stress and i avoid it. no need to hurt people. but if i still do, i'm sorry. i reckon that what's make me human. 


3. aku lebih sayang orang. sebab orang2 yang boleh tahan dengan aku masa aku stress memang hebat la. bukan senang nak tahan dengan aku.






pesanan miss Q.....


no matter how low life brings you down, no matter how hard you fell, just hang on. never takes life too seriously. because no one gets out of it alive. take note that the best is yet to come. just pray and be happy. 

  
   

exam?? ~sigh~

3 down, 3 to go...

after three papers, i'm numb..

everyday, after my paper, 

i go home and take a shower.....

i sit on the floor of the shower......

and wait until i'm shivering.......

gosh... 

i'm blur, numb, sleepy and helpless......

                 

ok, fun time over...

back to study time...

sedetik lebih, sejuta cinta...

cinta itu bukan jalinan dua hati, tapi paduan dua jiwa...


assalamualaikum and hai kamu...


Benar.. Aku menyukaimu.. Aku menyintaimu.. Aku mahu kita lebih dari hubungan kawan.. Tp sperti ada ssuatu mhalang aku dr mluahkn isi hati ini.. Aku tersiksa syg.. Aku tersiksa krn xmampu utk mngucapkn kata cinta.. Aku takut.. Hati ini bdegup pantas tatkala kau menegurku.. Walaupun kita hny berbual kosong, tp ckup utk aku... rasa bhagia.. Walau sebentar cuma..
~maafkn aku kerna dlm diam mcintaimu..

hmmm... ~sigh~


speechless... that's all i can say.


serabut serabai weee pikir pasal bende nie. what is the right thing to do? what to say? 
when you fall in love you can't thing racionally nor logically because your brain will starts malfunction so much!


right now, i should get some sleep.. maybe when i woke up, i can get everything straight and clear.
gosh, it's 4 already? why i'm not sleepy??
eye oh eye,  please close..
heart oh heart, stop falling please... 
brain oh brain, stop thinking will you??


sleep....












sleep.....










sleep.....
















argh!!! miss Q, just go to sleep will ya.............

kisah hari selasa...

Hearts are meant to be broken, you just have to find the right glue to mend it back together. ;)

assalamualaikum and hello there...

ini kisah hari selasa.. cuti for perak so, kami yang bosan mula la wat plan yang bukan - bukan... actually, saje main masak - masak untuk orang p0se..

jom intai bawah tudung saji kami...

nie sebenarnye recipe sambal bilis kak diah.. 

bilisnye je belum terjun lagi

kangkung goreng belacan aku dengan kak ti...

pakai mask oi masa masak nie..

kema punya recipe sotong... sodap!

buka p0se menu ala kampung..

air kopi 0 ais special from mu0... hahahaha...

credit to kak diah, kak ti, kak anim and kema sebab sudi main masak -masak dengan kami!! yipeee... esok kite masak lagi ye.. 3 hari berturut - turut ada orang masak untuk miss Q.. sodap memang sodap tapi nie yang wat miss Q lagi rindu mama nie!! huhuhu... 

ending kisah ari selasa nie yang paling best sebab kak satika belanja kami makan sate kajang bawak dari kajang (ye la tak kan dari mu0 kot!! agak - agak la!!!) thanks satik sebab bawak sate yang best itu. thanks jugak kepada safieda sebab teman kami makan. pada sasapik... hmmm... motipp je kamu nie ye!!! siap la.. ada ubi ada batas.. ada hari, upload video!

ninja boy name hemohemo..

ye, saya memang emo!

~ dengan kamu aje sebab kamu yang emo dengan saya dulu! motipp nak marah2.. kata c00l.. chillex la...

Once I am falling with you, I will keep falling for you, but keep reminding. If both of us break up in the middle way, I will ignored you forever because in my life only once not so many times. ;)

how i feel....

bila rindu...

“I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

Maya Angelou

to geng JJ.....

I miss how we used to talk every minute of every day..

and how I was able to tell you everything that was on my mind...

I miss our conversations..

i miss singing my heart out with you...

i miss chillex-ing with you..

most of all,

i miss each and everyone of you!

 

It's better to have one friend who really get you 


than having a bunch of friends that will pretend to get you.

pon..pon... final coming!!

Life is like a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, but you only spend it once.
Lillian Dickson




assalamualaikum and hello there....


attention please...
i want to announce that fun time is over!!
say what???
really??
why!!!
hello miss Q....
look at this,

see...

you still want to play??

gosh, why final come so soon??

argh... ~sigh~

=>> i start collecting all the books and notes under the bed, in the beg, behind the rack... the notes are full with dusts... start to read my notes.... what did i write?? all i can see is sleepy faces,name, songs and name of food. shuts!! i'm a dead meat... i start shuting down  ym, skype, movie, games and blog..

hold on!! blog?? oh no.. no.. no.. no... not my  blog. blogging is still on.

so, wish me luck for my final people!!

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
Mother Teresa

crazy little thing call blog...

If You Really Love Something Set It Free.
If It Comes Back It's Yours,
If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be




assalamualaikum and hello there...


missing kema  already.. hahaha... but at least selamat 20 sen aku (there a agreement between me and kema)....
i'm taking discourse analysis this sem and i have to analyze a blog. so if chosen a blog called my secluded whistles . like i said during my presentation, as a blogger myself, i looking for a blog that i can relate myself to. meaning that when i read that blog i'll say, hey! there's someone out there feels and goes through the same thing like i do. our story is the same. hehehehe... simple requirement!

although i manage to finish my blog analysis within 5 days while others took more than seven days to finish it (i didnt know i can present on friday), i'm satisfied with the final result. eventhough this crazy little thing call blog kills me softly and makes me slept at 4 something every night, cried a few time, scream till i lost my voice, still i enjoy doing it (hahaha.. lying!!! ) my presentation went well like dr. raja said: " aqilah, did you notice that you said, she hopes everything will went well?" shuts! that's the only mistake i did that time... and i thought i'll mess up somewhere else.


it's fun though. reading and analyzing other's blog. see how others look at the world. see and share about others life. it makes me realize there's always something new to explore and learn.

so for those who doesn't have blog, you should try. my friend come across a blog that is very interesting. the blogger said that the reason why she started blogging is that after sometimes, she wanted to see how much she has grown stronger and wiser. wait... is she talking about me???
hahahahaha...
i think that is the same reason why i started blogging. besides sharing my thought, i want to see and know that at the end of the day, when the storm pass, when the rainbow comes out, i'm already a better person than yesterday. after all, life is not a journey to count how many milestone you have go. it's a journye to find myself. creating who i want to be..


to my crazy little thing call blog..
kisah kasut, miss Q always love you!

it's BBQ nite... twinkle twinkle tesl star.. 2nd release...

tears are words heart cant express....



assalamualaikum  and hello there,
as promise, here's the part 2 of my twinkle twinkle tesl star...
i think i'll also release part 3....
and it's going to be the most interesting part..
hahahaha...
for now on...
enjoy!

and the story continues...
wait for the ending ok..
and it's a happy ending for sure.





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