segmen masak memasak...

assalamualaikum and hello there...

benda yang aku pantang ialah bila aku dah penat-penat masak tiba2 ada makhluk Allah nie cakap aku masak tak sedap. cis! esok makan pinggan je. bagi makan penampar bertubi2 baru tau!

ingat lagi zaman2 kegelapan aku bila gula dengan garam pon aku tak tau beza. hahahahah.. kena rasa dulu kot!

waktu tu, standard bagi orang2 yang tak pandai masak akan cakap ' eh, aku pandai masak la. masak air!'

heheheheheh... jawapan tu memang mintak kasut saiz 7!

meh aku ajar korang jawapan pecah panggung...

bila org tanya ' ko pandai masak ke??!!' 

(soalan tu mesti berserta muka annoying profesor sentap-ati-mak-nak)

korang jawap dengan muka confident Apex nak amik penalti Indonesia

berani ko cakap aku tak pandai masak! ko belum rasa maggi aku lagi...!!

sumpah orang itu takkan kutuk korang lagi!

ok la maggi aku pon dah kembang. kita jumpa lagi nanti.

buat yang tak pandai masak tu, bawak2 la belajar. kalau tak pandai masak asam pedas pon mee bandung pon jadi la! hahahahahhahahah.....

waiting for superman...

waiting for superman...



The stronger the faith you have the more difficult the tests and trials you will face




assalamualaikum and hello there...

somebody asked me something yesterday. a very common question, yet i fail to provide answer for that question each time. ' what do i want?'

what?

what?

what?

hmmmmm.... ~sigh~

firstly, i want not to want him. yes! i want not to want him. this feeling inside really kills me. i know i rather love than hurting people but if loving him hurts me why should i stay? i'm just a girl who stand in front a person asking him to love me. too bad he did not hear me.

second, i wanna be happy. i have every right to live a beautiful and happy life. those who choose to 'unfriend' me please, go ahead! be my guest!!!!  just leave me alone. stop look at me, stop talk to me and stop think about me. just walk!!!! dont make me feel like i'm the one who done wrong things to you when you are the one who are killing me softly.

third, finish everything now. god, please make them stop!!!




i'm waiting for my superman. waiting for someone to save me. because right now i'm not strong enough to save myself. 
thanks to ct, puan ros and yufi for keeping me strong. hope i can go on......
really pray i've my mama back. ya Allah, please keep her by myside. right now, she's all i need. all i want!

cer citer.... cer citer....

Jom kongsi cerita apa cita - cita kita.

Ingat tak masa kita sekolah dulu-dulu.. Yup zaman kita innocent dolu-dolu.. Hmm.. Ingat tak ade satu kad kuning yang isi info tentang progress and our family info.. Still remember?? Hmmm... Kalau tak ingat tak pe. Makna nya korang tu dah tua sebab dah lama sangat tinggalkan sekolah!

Ok.. Tadi aku cari kad appoitment doctor tapi jumpa kad kuning aku tu. Motipp mama simpan benda tu. Ha, dah dapat kat aku memang confirm, sah lagi sahih akan aku musnahkan! Huhuhu....

Gini, aku bila baca kad progress tu aku gelak sendiri. Mula-mula sebab dulu aku kurus kot. Sekarang berat mak ai! Malu nak ngadap cikgu aku yang lama-lama. Dah la semua tu geng and kroni mama... Dush! Kira ok la ade gak progress.

No duanya aku gelak sebab aku punya markah dulu. Mak ai... Bukan main best lagi. Bakpe la dulu aku rajin belajar sekarang tak? Hmmm... Musyhkil dibenak beta la.

Yang ketiga sebab aku tengok column cita-cita tu. Sedar tak sedar, walaupon hati aku cakap ' sumpah aku tak nak jadi cikgu sebab susah nak didik orang ' tapi sekarang aku dalam bidang pendidikan. Kerjaya kedua pilihan aku ialah police. Sekarang pon aku anggota suksis.

Then aku senyum suke suki sorang-sorang....

Nak tau kenape??

Sebab aku selalu focus untuk capai sesuatu tu. To ensure that i get what i want. Without realizing that sooner or later i'm gonna be there. I just need to prepare myself to be there. Tak paham? Takpe.. It takes me 22 years to understand.

Cer cite...

Ok. Masa sekolah dulu apa matlamat kita? Nak masuk U, betul tak? Bila dekat U plak apa yang kita nak? Nak dapat kerja yang bagus, right? Dah kerja? Nak kawin plak. Sedar atau tidak pada setiap individu tahap tu berbeza maksudnya bagus ke, biasa-biase je ke tapi flownye tetap sama.

Tapi bila dah sampai level tu sediakah kita dengan cabaran dan dugaan didalamnya? Hmmm.. Mesti tak kan. Normally what we face are usually beyond our expectations. But ready or not we have to face it. Masa tu la orang kata cultural shock. Hmmm...

The truth is we should not focus ourself on how to get what we want but to prepare ourself when we are there.

Life is full with suprises but that's life. 

phobia cinta...

assalamualaikum and hello there...

i dont have philophobia, i've agliophobia..

what phobia is that?? hmmm... i dont know, i only have ranidaphobia and musophobia...
philophobia is the fear of falling in love or fear of love..
agliophobia is the fear of pain or being hurt.

well, in that case i've agliophobia too then. i still remember a friend of mine tell me that ' never fall in love, fall off the bridge, it hurts less'. i dont know about it. never fall in or off anything. so, when i do, i'll let you guys know. but it is true if we was hurt so deeply by someone we love so much, we'll tend to hurt other too as revenge? hmmm....

the thing is nobody is perfect. the person you love before is not the same as the new on. maybe she/he is not meant for you. just accept the fact that something are just not meant to be. right now i feel that it is very easy to say because i've never been in the situation. hmmmm... not really, i've seen the person that i love so much get hurts. all i know is when someone really loves you, they will never hurt you. and if they do, you'll see that in their eyes.... they are hurting too. that what i know and i know it for sure!

if you love someone, tell that person. if that person dont love you, you got nothing to lose. just let go. if it comes back, that's how you know that it meant to be yours forever. if it's not then just go to the nearest store and buy chocolate and eat them! hehehehe....

frust punya pasal....

My mum are my catalys until my last breath....




hari ni tahap frust memang melampaui batas. tak tau kenapa. ok, fine! 
sebab miss Q lapar giler smpai perut starts wat konsert akustik plus tak dapat jawap. bukan tak tau. miss Q tau definition dia. term plak lupa.. ah sudah!! stress oo..... lalu aku bawa diri meninggalkan dewan exam nie.. balik ke ku0 membawa nasi mengisi perut yang syahdu ini... huargh...


so topic kita pada hari nie murid - murid ialah frust, stress, tertekan, kuciwa dan yang sewaktu dengannya.


ok, keluarkan sehelai kertas dan pen (pensil pon boleh)
bayangkan kalau anda stress.. apa yang anda lakukan??  bahagiamanakah anda mengetahui yang anda sedang dilanda cinta stress?? apakah langkah mengatasinya?? dan apakah kesan daripada stress tersebut? karangan hendaklah lebih dari 1000 patah perkataan dan kurang daripada 2000 patah perkataan. waaaaa.... (practise prepare question untuk student nanti)


ha.. ape tunggu lagi?? jawap la.. soalan aras 2 je pon...


so, macam mana miss Q tau yang dia stress??


1. diam.
~ diam miss Q nie ada 2 makna, 1 dia memang malas nak layan sebab sama ada dia ngantuk, lapar atau pon tengah sawan. yang 1 lagi sebab dia marah, stress atau bengang.... biasanye sebab yang no 2 tu.... 
2. conteng.
~ bila miss Q dah start menconteng maknanya dia bosan tapi lebih kepada stress. tengok jugak la ape yang dia conteng tu.
3. nyanyi.
~ yup! menyanyi sebab nak pura2 n buat2 lupa yang dia sedang tekanan.
4.tengok muka.
~ member masa asrama dulu pernah cakap, muka sangap nak tido ko nie mesti sebab ko stress... ha, sape curi biskut ko? cis... ada ke sebab biskut aku nak stress.. tak masal! (tapi memang selalu pon, hahahahaha!!!)
5. announcement
~ saya suka cakap. STREEEEESSSSSS!!!!! hahahahaha.. kadang2 tu saje suke2.. bukan stress pon.. sebab dah tak tau nak sebut ape. kang mencarut kena cili plak. heheheheh... sori kawan2..




next, langkah mengatasinya??


1. mama
~ yang nie memang mujarab. call je mama, even kena marah pon pastu mama mesti wat aku tersenyum. macam tadi. frust sebab blur nk jawap paper discourse. miss Q tau dah mama nak cakap ape. but somehow i know she'll cheer me up. yup, 1 person who never fails to make me smile, my mama. (agak2 klau aku ada anak nanti dapat tak wat macam yang mama buat?? ~sigh~)
2. makan 
~ bukan ape, bila frust je lapar, so makan je la.... biasanya miss Q akan makan mcD, pernah kot duduk lama2 dekat mcD tu makan, then perhatikan orang. sampai abang tu kata dik, kte orang dah nak tutup kedai nie! (ok, part yang tutup kedai tu bongak je!)
3. menjerit.
~yang nie memang soothing giler. best woooo... rasa macam puas je.
4. main hujan
salah satu sebab kenapa saya suka main hujan?? sebab dia best.. hehehehe.... tak jugak. sebab when i'm standing in the rain, no one can see that i'm crying.
5. crying (style latest!!)
~ sem nie la baru develop style nie. aku nie susah nak nangis untuk bende bukan2.but somehow this sem i can easily cry. ada sekali aku nangis sebab aku nak ym mamat tu sebab nak ngadu aku sedih tahap katak tapi dia boleh cakap tak nak! pergh... aku dah la tengah sedih+ stress+ kecewa = syahdu.. dia boleh wat macam tu dekat aku. ha, nangis terus. padahal selalu aku boleh je nak chillex tapi sebab sekarang hati aku nie fragile kan.. nak wat macam ner.
6. tengok bende2 lawak.
tak kira la gambar ke, video ke voice recording ke... janji lawak super saiya!
7. tido!
there will come a day when you'll feel like in hell and you'll want to give up on this life and everything else. when that day arrives, save yourself some trouble and dont do a thing.just take a nap.
it works, you should try!(at least it works on me!).




kesan dia?


1. mula la aku termenung sorang2. just ignore the world. bukan ape, miss Q nie fail anger management dan sarcastic control masa dekat sekolah dulu (kes selalu tukar2 cikgu). kang klau dah termarah ke, tercarut ke atau tertampar ke bukan boleh reverse balik. contoh macam klau kita dah tercakap dekat kawan kita : " eh, mu ni gong la!" ingat senang2 ke nak cakap, " ok aku tarik balik, aku yang gong". hehehehe... si badak boleh la wat macam tu..


2. i'm a better person. i know what makes me stress and i avoid it. no need to hurt people. but if i still do, i'm sorry. i reckon that what's make me human. 


3. aku lebih sayang orang. sebab orang2 yang boleh tahan dengan aku masa aku stress memang hebat la. bukan senang nak tahan dengan aku.






pesanan miss Q.....


no matter how low life brings you down, no matter how hard you fell, just hang on. never takes life too seriously. because no one gets out of it alive. take note that the best is yet to come. just pray and be happy. 

  
   

crazy little thing call blog...

If You Really Love Something Set It Free.
If It Comes Back It's Yours,
If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be




assalamualaikum and hello there...


missing kema  already.. hahaha... but at least selamat 20 sen aku (there a agreement between me and kema)....
i'm taking discourse analysis this sem and i have to analyze a blog. so if chosen a blog called my secluded whistles . like i said during my presentation, as a blogger myself, i looking for a blog that i can relate myself to. meaning that when i read that blog i'll say, hey! there's someone out there feels and goes through the same thing like i do. our story is the same. hehehehe... simple requirement!

although i manage to finish my blog analysis within 5 days while others took more than seven days to finish it (i didnt know i can present on friday), i'm satisfied with the final result. eventhough this crazy little thing call blog kills me softly and makes me slept at 4 something every night, cried a few time, scream till i lost my voice, still i enjoy doing it (hahaha.. lying!!! ) my presentation went well like dr. raja said: " aqilah, did you notice that you said, she hopes everything will went well?" shuts! that's the only mistake i did that time... and i thought i'll mess up somewhere else.


it's fun though. reading and analyzing other's blog. see how others look at the world. see and share about others life. it makes me realize there's always something new to explore and learn.

so for those who doesn't have blog, you should try. my friend come across a blog that is very interesting. the blogger said that the reason why she started blogging is that after sometimes, she wanted to see how much she has grown stronger and wiser. wait... is she talking about me???
hahahahaha...
i think that is the same reason why i started blogging. besides sharing my thought, i want to see and know that at the end of the day, when the storm pass, when the rainbow comes out, i'm already a better person than yesterday. after all, life is not a journey to count how many milestone you have go. it's a journye to find myself. creating who i want to be..


to my crazy little thing call blog..
kisah kasut, miss Q always love you!

appearance versus reality.....

The more you do for others without expectation of return, the more you'll get back from the most unexpected sources.
Brian Tracy

look can be deceiving.. that what i've learn from a doll's house.

yesterday i read about suicide. hmmmm... it made me think a lot.

there's days i wish i didn't have to face anybody.
there's days i wish i'm a missing person.
there's days i wish i didn't know certain person.
there's days i wish i can simply unfriend certain people.
there's days i wish i can undone my act.
there's days i wish everything is pure.
there's days i wish i can took back what i've said.

but i woke up everyday with no regret. why?
because of the story of this girl

she loves to cheer people up. she loves to cook for her friends. she always find a way to make them happy. she always lend her ears to people. she finds as many quote as she can to encourage people. she tries to be as patient as she can when facing problem. she does not curse or at least cover her cursing words. she tries to understand people. she cherish people who love her. she always talks and talk and talk all the time. she always loves to laugh. she tries not to complain so much.



yup! she's a drama queen because she acts pretty well.

because only she knows how she really felt. she's fragile physically and emotionally. she's also afraid of uncertainty. she can easily been hurt by people around her especially by friend who assume themselves as friend. it is hard for her to think clearly when she's stress out. she has nobody to cry to, share her problems, to cheer her up. she has nobody to hold on to and even to turn to. she can't express her feeling well as no word is good enough to show exactly how she felt.

she doesn't want people to worry about her. she told everyone that she is OK. she always look so happy even when she is facing problems. only she knows all the pains and rains she has to go through. nobody knows how broken  inside she is and how empty she feels. she keeps on counting tomorrow to be a better day. she's the one who realize that the everything have never change. her prays everyday is that she can bear with the purposelessness of her life.

hold on girl. there will be a happy ending for you.

“Don't go for the looks, it can be quite deceiving. Don't go for wealth, even that fades away -- go for someone who makes you smile because only a smile makes a dark day seem bright. Hope you find that person.”

love knock me down....

Breaking up is never fun. The end of a relationship means the beginning of a period of mourning and healing for both people. If the break up was mutual both people will experience a period of adjustment where they are getting used to no longer being together. If the break up was not mutual the person who ended things may be dealing with guilt and feelings that they may have made a mistake. The person being broken up with will definitely have to adjust, first to being rejected and second to life without somebody they still care for. How do you get through those first few weeks? Here we list eight essential things everybody must do in the early days of a break up to let the healing begin.

1. Avoid the former love. Yes, avoid. No, this isn’t being immature. Seeing your former flame can bring out emotions and may cause you do to or say something you will regret. In the first few weeks the best thing you can do for yourself is not be where you know they will be.
2. Talk out your feelings with close friends. Get everything out so that you won’t hold it inside. Your friends may get sick of hearing you talk about the situation but you need to let out all your feelings and thoughts or they may come back to bite you later.
3. Cry if you want to. It’s OK to cry over a loss. Don’t hold back, let the tears roll just do it in a safe and private place where it is unlikely to get back to your ex. You don’t want your tears to be used as a guilt trip. Their purpose is to cleanse you of any pain not make your lover come back.
4. Let go of mementos. Put away or give away anything and everything that reminds you of the relationship. Hide them out of sight so they will be out of mind until you are able to remember the relationship without longing for it to still be going strong.
5. Don’t slip up and get together with your ex. When you are feeling sad or missing a relationship it can be very easy to fall back in to the arms of your ex but DO NOT DO THIS. This will only set you back and let’s face it, if things ended the relationship wasn’t perfect to begin with so why would you want to rekindle things?? 
6. 
7. Focus on all the things about your ex that drove you crazy, turned you off, or that you just plain found annoying. Think about these things often and replay them in your mind over and over. Dwell on them. It will make you feel better to remember that your former flame was not perfect and that there are things you won’t really miss.
8. Think about the mean, cruel or rude things your ex may have done in your relationship. Really give these things play in your memory. Remind yourself that somebody who truly cared for you would not have done such thoughtless things and tell yourself (over and over) that you are better off without that kind of ego crushing behavior in your life.
9. Maintain a strict no contact policy and stick with it. Don’t pass notes through friends. Don’t make any calls. Stay away from instant messaging or texting on your cell. Just don’t contact your ex until you are totally and completely sure you no longer want to be with him or her. It is the only way.

Mending a broken heart is not easy but it can be done. Just stick to the game plan outlined above and before you know it you’ll be just fine. Good luck!

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when i fall in love... dedicated to my knight in shining armor.

when i'm single, i always wonder.

when i'm going to find someone who will love me....

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

maybe i have to keep on looking. someday, somehow i'll find my knight in shining armor. i just need to keep on searching.....

I might have to wait,

I'll never give up

I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck

Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

then comes the day when i finally meet you. no word is good enough to explain how i feel.....

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

every since then, i feel so happy. you really make my day, sweetheart!

Well i know that these feelings wont end now
they'll just get stronger if i see you again
Baby im tired of being friends
I wanna know if you feel the same,
and could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Dont leave me in doubt

Everytime you see me what do u see?
i feel like im a poor man an youre the queen
oh baby, youre the only thing that i really need
baby thats why...

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night
you make me wanna hold you till the morning light
You make me wanna love,
you make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul
I know this is a feeling that i just cant fight,
you're the first and last thing on my mind
You make me wanna love
You make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul

i still remember the moment you tell me you feel the same way like i do. feel like i'm on top of the world. gosh, i couldn't even remember why but i've tears in my eyes..

I wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does
You walked into my life
To stop my tears
Everything's easy now
I have you here

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

you promise me you'll always be there for me. to love me and cherish me......

i can still remember what you say.

Saw so many pretty faces before I saw you,
Now all I see is you
I'm coming for you

Don't need these other pretty faces like I need you
And when you're mine in the world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl

I'm coming for you, one less lonely girl
I'm coming for you, one less lonely girl
I'm coming for you, one less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl

I'm coming for you, I'm gonna put you first
I'm coming for you, I'll show you what you're worth
That's what I'm gonna do, if you let me inside of your world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl

one day you ask me. why i love you at the first place. i know you are mad with me because i couldn't come out with any answer. but sweetheart, did you know what we dont need a reason to love somebody??

Is it your smile or your laugh or your heart?
Does it really matter why I love you?
Anywhere there's a crowd, you stand out
Can't you see why they can't ignore you
If you wanna know
Why I can't let go
Let me explain to you
That every little dream comes true
With every little thing you do

It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall in love with you
There isn't a way that I can show you
Ever since I've come to know you
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this
There's not a thing that I can point to
'Cause it's every little thing you do

It's everything, everything you do
That makes me fall in love with you
It's everything, everything you say
That makes me feel this way

then we argue. before i go to sleep, i receive a message from you. did you know how happy i was at that time? i cant fall to sleep the whole night just because of that message....

What makes her so right?
Is it the sound of her laugh?
That look in her eyes
When do you decide?
She is the dream that you seek
That force in your life

When you apologize, no matter who was wrong
When you get on your knees if that would bring her home

Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know
So that I can get over you

my mama said that i'm crazy now. mama, didn't you know that your daughter is in love now?

i'm so in love with him...

I wonder how I ever made it through a day
How did I settle for the world in shades of gray
When you go in circles all the scenery looks the same
And you don't know why
And I looked into your eyes
Where the road stretched out in front of me
And I realized

I'd never lived
Before your love
I'd never felt
Before your touch
And I'd never needed anyone
To make me feel alive
But then again,
I wasn't really livin'

I'd never lived...
Before your love

my day went well ever since you came into my life.. in my little world, i just need you. to hold me, to love me and i'm stronger to face the world again.......

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky
They wipe away tears that I cry
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all
You make me rise when I fall

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last
I need you by my side

'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go
I want you in my life

one day i see something different in you eyes. you don't look at me how you used to. you say i'm crazy to think of such thing but sweetheart, you've change.

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm
He came around and he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know
Or seem to care what your heart is for
Well I don't know him anymore
There's nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake
And I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune teller's right
I should have seen just what was there
And not some holy light
But you crawled beneath my veins
And now I don't care
I have no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can't touch I'm torn

i try my best to work thing out because i really love you. but we are drifting away. love has knock me down......

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

sweetheart, no matter what happen, just remember that i'll always love you. if you find someone better than me, i'm willing to let you go. although my love for you is unbreakable.

Dying inside 'cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you don't know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's a mistake if we just erase it
From our hearts and minds and I know


We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
'cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

i'll learn to let you go. i'll always pray for you happiness....

you'll always be there in my heart.

Is it cloudy where you are tonight?
Are the neon lights shining bright?
Are you looking for a place to stay to get away? (can't get away)
And the days are horses down the hill,
Running fast and there's no time to kill
And the truth is that we'll never know where love will flow

Aim high, Shoot low


Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right
Cos we couldn't seem to find a way, for love to stay
If you had another night to give
I would have another night to live
But you're never gonna see me cry the last goodbye

if one day, you get our heartbroken, just remember i'll always be there waiting for you....

cause i'm the one who will always love you.

I watched you go
You've taken
My heart with you
Oh yes you did
Every time
I tried to reach you
On the phone
Baby you're never there
Girl you're never home

So if I did something wrong
Please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cause I don't want
This love to ever end
No, no, no, no

I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
Oh yes you are

sweetheart,

sign, sealed , delivered.. i'm yours.

angina pectoris, my latest buddy...

Assalammualaikum and hello there...

First and foremost i'm not feeling well or i'm sick due to people's attitude around me muscle cramp on my chest aka kak gina pregnancy. I know some think that i’m lying about my disease but i’m not. I just dont like to ‘brag’ about it ok! Please people, understand a little bit..

angina pectoris???

What is angina pectoris, doctor?

Angina pectoris is a term that describes chest pain caused by myocardial ischemia - a condition in which the amount of oxygen getting to the heart muscle is insufficient. It usually occurs on exertion and is relieved by rest. Angina generally is a symptom ofcoronary artery disease. In most severe cases, it may occur with minimal effort or at rest.

How does it feels, doctor?

Angina pectoris is a common manifestation of coronary artery disease. The pain is caused by reduced blood flow to a segment of heart muscle (myocardial ischemia). It usually lasts for only a few minutes, and an attack is usually quickly relieved by rest or drugs (such as nitroglycerin). Also, it is possible to have myocardial ischemia without experiencing angina.

Typically, angina is described as a "pressure" or "squeezing" pain that starts in the center of the chest and may spread to the shoulders or arms (most often on the left side, although either or both sides may be involved), the neck, jaw or back. It is usually triggered by extra demand on the heart: exercise, an emotional upset, exposure to cold, digesting a heavy meal are common examples.

Some people experience angina while sleeping or at rest. This type of angina may be caused by a spasm in a coronary artery, which most commonly occurs at the site of atherosclerotic plaque in a diseased vessel.

Most people with angina learn to adjust their lives to minimize attacks. There are cases, however, when the attacks come frequently and without provocation - a condition known as unstable angina. This is often a prelude to a heart attack and requires special treatment, primarily with drugs. Angina affects both men and women, usually in middle age. Men are much more likely than women to experience it before age 60. It may develop weeks, months or even years before a heart attack, or may be experienced only after a heart attack has occurred.

What are the causes, doctor?

The two main causes of angina are coronary artery spasm, and atherosclerotic plaque buildup which causes critical blockage of the coronary artery.

The risk factors include:

· smoking

· sedentary lifestyle

· high blood pressure, or hypertension

· high blood fats or cholesterol

· hypercholesterolemia

· diabetes

· family history of premature ischemic heart disease

Men are at higher risk than women.

What are the symptoms, doctor?

Classic or typical angina occurs predictably with physical exertion or strong emotional reactions, and goes away just as predictably with rest. Starting immediately behind the sternum (breast bone), the pain may radiate to the left arm and shoulder or up to the jaw.

Most people describe the pain as a kind of squeezing pressure, tightness or heaviness.

There may be anxiety, increased or irregular heart rate, paleness and cold sweat, and a feeling of doom. The symptoms are like the ones for a heart attack.

In some instances, chest pain results from other types of heart problems, including diseases that affect the heart muscle itself or the valves that control blood flow through the heart. Occasionally, ulcers, gallstones, abnormal contractions of the esophagus or severe anxiety and panic attacks can cause chest pain. However, if you do experience these symptoms, your best plan of action is to get immediate help. Stop doing whatever is causing the symptoms and call 911. Lie down with your head slightly elevated. If you are not allergic to it, take one adult aspirin.

What is the treatment?

In most instances, drugs are recommended for the treatment of angina before surgery is considered. The major classes of drugs used to treat angina include the following:

Nitrates. These come in several forms: nitroglycerine tablets to be slipped under the tongue during or in anticipation of an attack; ointment to be absorbed through the skin; long-acting medicated skin discs; or long-acting tablets. The latter three forms are used mostly to prevent rather than relieve attacks. The nitrates work by reducing the oxygen requirements of the heart muscle.

Beta-blocking Drugs. These agents act by blocking the effect of the sympathetic nervous system on the heart, slowing heart rate, decreasing blood pressure, and thereby, reducing the oxygen demand of the heart. Recent studies have found that these drugs also can reduce the chances of dying or suffering a recurrent heart attack if they are started shortly after suffering a heart attack and continued for two years.

Calcium-channel Blocking Drugs. These drugs are prescribed to treat angina that is thought to be caused by coronary artery spasm. They can also be effective for stable angina associated with exercise. All muscles need varying amounts of calcium in order to contract. By reducing the amount of calcium that enters the muscle cells in the coronary artery walls, the spasms can be prevented. Some calcium-channel blocking drugs also decrease the workload of the heart and some lower the heart rate as well.

All info from: Doctor aQilah... waaa.... perasan!!

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