Monday, October 31, 2011

jatuh cinta lagi: the trouble with girls

assalamualaikum and hello there...

as usual, when boredom say hello to me either i click the 'next blog' button or listen to random songs from youtube. thanks to you tiup, because it has made me fall in love again. this time, with this guy. his name is  scotty mccreery. however, i think i scotty mchotty suits him more. he got this very husky deep voice. just like micheal buble but in younger face.16 or 17.... i'm not sure. i think i saw him in american idol, if i'm not mistaken. hehehehe... he sings country song and make it sounds so damn g00d!!
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no wonder i seen him somewhere before. he won american idol season 10. watch his duet with the runner-up. it was superb!! his very talented and deserved to win. the song 'i love you this big' is actually his winning song.
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please enjoy his music...



Sunday, October 30, 2011

scandal, g0ssip atau khabar angin???

assalamualaikum and hello there....

lately miss Q telah me' glamour' kan dirinye dengan g0ssip liar yang tak masuk akal! please la... hang ingat hang retis?? renti kan la koje2 tak berpekdah nie...

tapi petang tadi memang limit la... katak je budak2 nie kenakan aku!


shelly: amboi kak Qil, sekarang bukan main ye!! dengan inter plak ye.
miss Q: ha?? cite ape nie?? tak paham (man pesan kalau tak paham atau tak tahu jangan cakap. nampak beno nipunye!!)
zura: ari tu tuh.. bukan main lagi. makan berdua ye??!! kantoi sudah.
miss Q: ha?? mana ada.
shelly: eleh nak nafikan pulak. tolong la, dah la keluar dengan orang tinggi. agak2 la nak cover.
miss Q: untung la boleh keluar makan.
shelly: untung la....
miss Q: kema!! tolong la bagi tau diorang hakikat penceritaan sebenar!!
kema: memang betul tu!
shelly: tak payah la nak cover lagi kak! boleh wat status nie. 3 line + 2 line = 1 hati
miss Q: amboi ko status cannot gi!
kema: tah tadi dekat umah cik kem dia dah jumpe dah idola dia. super senior tu couple masa yang pompuan tu senior, laki tu inter. idola dia la tu.
shelly: oh, dah jumpe idola la ye..........
zura: cepat la turun SL tu kan!!
shelly: ha, tu sms SL la tu.
miss Q: kema!!!
kema: cepat la turun SL, boleh kita couple...
miss Q: amboi ko kema!! nak kena campak ke???

aku dengan pelik & hairan bercampur musyhkil tertanya2.. salah ke aku keluar dengan dia?? hmmmm....
nama pon kawan. takkan la bende2 kecik tu korang nak wat gossip. happens to be i'm comfortable talking to him. happens to be he's my junior and happens to be he's a guy. so? what i'm suppose to do??

nota-kaki-gajah: ok fine mr. AB kita tengok sape 'jatuh' dulu ye..!!


indeed, Allah is with the patient

assalamualaikum and hello there....
(this post is personal, very personal indeed.)

i've wrote a very long 'essay', thousand of words just to hurt you. yup! i'm thinking of using this opportunity to hurt you as much as you hurt me or even more. then after deep consideration, i deleted all the nasty, mean and cruel words that i've wrote. as simple as that. reason? because i'll definitely cry, mourn and hurt if some wrote like that to me...

often we say something, sometimes so little yet it hurts people around us. we are so caught up in our own emotion, ourselves that we don't realize what we did or say have affected other people. then we are too selfish to admit our mistake. even worse, we finger pointing to other people. for what? because we are to ego to take the blame. we just want things to go by our rules, our way.

be a man (or ladies, with one suits you)!
take the blame..
admit you mistake..
stop being the defendant in your own court.
swallow your own excuses, eat all you lies.

i've try my very best to forgive you. but more than often my heart keep saying your broken promises between us, my head keeps on remembering your lies to me. trust is like a piece of paper. once it's cramp, it'll never be the same. maybe you were right. like seasons, people change. maybe it me who change maybe it's you.

i stop talking because words fails me. there's nothing else i could say. i guess you never look at me the way i look at you. right at this very moment, i'm swallowing my own pride because i know i've hurt you too. silence is a girl loudest cry. you'll know how much you hurt her when she starts to ignore you. however, i guess you'll never notice. you are too caught up in you brand new world. brand new friends.

all the time we spend together, all the joke we share. dear, you have stole my heart at the firt moment you make me smile when tears fell from my eyes. now, i'm asking you to gave it all back to me. i just want all the memories to remain. stop taking about mistakes that we have made, sins that we've done. it wont change a thing. not even a bit. people say things happens for a reason. the reason you in my life is to teach me to be strong. steel strong, forever strong. perhaps, you are the one responsible to make me different, made me who i'm suppose to be. for that i thank you.

my dear, it's really hurtful when people we know become people we knew. yes it is...
when my friend told me dont depend to much on people, even your own shadow left you when it's dark, i laugh! it's ridiculous.. how can someone who make me smile, could ever hurt me? guess i'm wrong. like they say, real eyes realize real lies.... if we ever come across each other in future, dont even bother to look at me. because it only remind me of things that i wanted to badly but i can only have it in my dreams. the dreams that i only get because i'm sleeping with broken heart.

i hurt you my dearest, i'm really sorry. for every tears that i've shed for crying because of you, i've forgive you. dont even bother to mend this very beautiful friendship. i rather you choose the new 'world' over me. because if you really love me, cherish me like you said, you'll stick in our own world even if it is dark.

my pray to Allah always, take care of you like you used to take care of me. bless you and you life always. make you happier than when you was with me.

my dear, i love you beyond word. always was, always will......
   

sabtu yang indah: fabulous weekend!!

The best date is with someone who can take you anywhere 
without touching anything but your heart....

tidur lenaku terganggu... saya bengang bercampur bengong.
bak kata mr. AB aka azman
sekian harap maklum,
ini ada janaan komputer, tandatangan adalah tidak diperlukan.

makluman diterima, mr. AB...

tapi bila aku bangun, ada message dari man yang sweet2 cotton candy. so, terus aku chillex je!

hari sabtu nie hari sabtu yang indah... sebab??
aQilah~ aMirul~aKma
amacam??

ingat tak kisah kami dolu-dolu..
ala kisah sabtu yang indah..

hmmm... ayat faveret kema bila jumpe cik amir aku tu,
' mirul nie baik la' ala kema2.. ang tak rasa ke dia memang macam tu?? kalau kema rasa dia baik, kema baru je jumpa dia. aqil dah dengan dia dari darjah enam kema. dari kami berhingus dolu-dolu. ceeewwaahh!! kalau aqil sedih-sedih sendu dolu, dia la antara sorang first aqil call. lepas call sure senyum sakit pipi!!

ok2.. untuk kali ke seratus enam puluh juta aku side track lagi!!
pagi2 cik amir dah antar sms, maybe kena cancel plan sebab seremban hujan. aig00!!
aku tak give. bukan senang nak jumpa cik amir. so, tukar plan.. kami jumpa dekat kl. bila aqil nek bas, cik amir kata dia lambat sikit. akma pon ape lagi, mesejid yok!! ok2.. kita gi mesejid (masjid india aku panggil mesejid).. so, sampai2 aqil dengan kema dah tak ingat nak makan, ingat nak jalan je. dapat la round2.. grab couple of kain, bag for ruza (glad she love it!!)..  then kema buy something for her mum then straight to TS for cik amir.
                        
when we reached TS, we ate at wendy's. nice chicken grill!!
then we when shop..
then we talk..
then we laugh..

cik amir always worth my time.. hehehehe..

but he had to go back early so, it's only me and kema.

kema, ape lagi.. aqil jom g mesejid!

gi mesejid balik la kami. tapi seyes ramai orang. sepatah kata my abg, nama pon YES kan sekarang dik, so ramai la. sesak giler.. but she wont give up untill she found the right bag.. kema!! you are killing my leg and stomach!!

but it's a very fun day. always fun whenever i'm with the two of them. so, to two of my besties and buddies.. this one for you baby!!

video

nota-kaki-anak-gajah: pening giler lepas round2 kl. muntah kot dlm bas.. kesian dekat kema. sori ye anak tiri!! sekarang nak try la sambung tido balik. esok pagi ada date! nitey nite peeps!!

Friday, October 28, 2011

aku tanpa cinta mu... 2n edition


assalamualaikum and hello there..

when i was eating lunch this evening, i remembered a joke (not really a joke) i told my mr. adviser. 

miss Q: if i request for in relationship with mr. J, do you think he going to accept?
mr. adviser: don't know... why? 
miss Q: nope, just asking.... (with a very confused face)
mr. adviser: just request la... if he don't i'll accept it for you.
miss Q : what?? that's not fair... (suddenly felt rejected)
mr. adviser: just try la..w ho knows he'll accept.
miss Q: nah!! i'm just joking... (laughing hilariously!!)

nah, i'm not gonna gamble. i know people say if you don't try you dont know but i'm too afraid to try. so in the end i dont even talk to him. hahahahaha.... :p 

motipp of telling this??
nothing, just remember something silly that i say that's all..


Whatever you are facing today, remember to give yourself some credit for making it this far. You are stronger than you know ! ;)


Thursday, October 27, 2011

emo... aku emo??? so what!!!

its amazing how you can look so happy but be so sad


assalamualaikum and hello there!!


hai peeps, i'm back..


ok, first of all, i'm talkative... very talkative.. i've to admit that. usually i like to talk to those people with just a very plain conversation  then will continue with something stupid or just totally retarded! hehehehehe...




well lately i enjoy talking to or texting this two people. 
1. my big bro, mr zulshamri zakaria
2. my new partner in crime, mr azman still bujang! hahahaha...


i found myself checking on my facial expression right after i talk to him. azman is able to make either my face cramp or my eyes started to cry. i'm just hopeless when it comes to laugh +cry! hehehehe...
what mr. AB usually talks about? hmmm... let me see, normally something like what ape or monkey can't do. i usually pick monkey cause they are much cuter! or which is the best way to fall from bicycle.. and the list goes on and on...
ok... forget about that..
back to what i want to share with you guys....
manners or attitude.


we talk about people attitude towards other. well, i don't want to say much. 
let say you was offended by someone. what should you do? say back or just keep quite? for me the best way to respond to a stupid, uncivilized person is just to keep quite. yup! what is the point of arguing with them when they dont understand what you are saying or being able to respond to what you are talking about? come on.. it is better to talk to the wall like mirul say, ' at least i can curse the wall!' 


one more thing, emotion..
well all of us have emotion right? for me, when you are angry bird or upset or just disappointed the best thing to do is to sit down for a moment and take long deep breath. firstly, not all of us think the same thing or way. so dont be upset when things don't go the way you want. chillex la...  


people always say:
don't promise when you're happy.
don't talk when you're angry.
dont swear when you're sad.




so?? hmmm... i just don't know. never gets to the conclusion part yet. till next time maybe.. toodles!!










A quote to mr. AB:

1 Advice: Take care
1 Request: Don't change
1 Wish: Don't forget me
1 Lie: I hate you
1 Truth: I Love You
1 Hope: We will always be good friends...::)))  

Sunday, October 23, 2011

aku tanpa cinta mu...





there's a girl, standing in front of a door..
waiting, wondering, hoping, wishing, and praying..
that one day the guy that is made for her, just her to come..
the answer to her long pray..
to make her happy, to love her, or just to complete her..
if he make it in her life, she'll give him everything, make him her world..
if he never show up, she'll be a very, very, very
LONELY GIRL...
somehow she knows that he will come in her life..
even just in her dreams..
she is still standing there..
waiting...
for her knight in shining armor ..
in heavy and long rainy night...


aku mesti pernah cerita dengan korangkan yang aku yang perfectly imperfect ini selalu, sering, kerap digelakkan bila aku bagi tau yang aku tak pernah bercinta or even jatuh cinta. hahahaha... silakan, jemput la kalau korang rasa nak gelak! jemput2... ke nak tunggu kad jemputan? shuts!!!

so what kalau aku tak pernah jatuh cinta?? does it make me unhuman? slightly retarded (memang pon!) ? hilang hidung ke? ~sigh~

selalu aku fikir, aku yang serba kekurangan ni mampukah kecapi bahgia? (wah, ko nyah! ayat tak menahan) tapi aku tahu janji Allah tu pasti. akan tiba masanya hadirlah dia yang memiliki separuh jiwaku. syurga buatku. rasa yang terindah dalam hatiku. so, kenapa mesti aku, yup miss Q aka si selipar jepun, miss kbai, miss pooh, miss-macam-macam-lagi-nickname-aku-sem-nie, harus tergopoh2? bukan ke kesabaran itu manis buahnya? aku nak menanti dan terus menanti. sebab aku tahu saat dia datang, aku rasa hadiah untuk setiap saat, detik aku bersabar.

ok, find aku dah pernah sebut pasal cinta aku dulu. ini kira entri kedua aku pasal cinta aku. ye, aku fully undertand why korang rasa boring dengan kisah cinta aku nie. ye, kisah cinta saya tak best macam cinta azzam dengan anna, tak sesadis cinta landon dan jamie mahu pun seromantik cinta adam dan nur. tapi ni blog aku, so kalau korang rasa nak baca kisah cinta orangg lain sila la tekan next blog dekat atas ye!


nape aku citer pasal cinta hari nie?
dah tak emo ke miss Q??
ke dah derita merindu?
bukan kanak2..
bukan sebab tu..
sebab..... hehehehehe
aku dah ok dah.
jiwa dah tak kacau.
alhamdullilah....





Thursday, October 20, 2011

refleksi....

if tomorrow never comes..
if today your last day..

today i realize i have nothing.. NOTHING to be sad about.
everything is going to be ok.
after all, people say at the end it's going to be ok...
if it is not ok, then it's not the end....

so, my life lately is going to be basically going to class, cycle, eat, movies and sleeping.
plus 1 more hobby, texting!



Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose.
— Yoda (Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith)

kisah sebatang pen dan sehelai kertas


Dont get MAD when a girl cares too much...
Worry when she starts NOT to care at all!!!



semalaman dekat hospital macam2 yang dah tercoret atas My Black Book... mula2 tu duduk dengan syahdunya sebab doc aku bagi surat panjang giler.. yang sendunya, aku x paham apa dia tulis.. mula la aku sob... sob... sob... ~sigh~ 
when a doctor writes a prescription for you and you can't read his handwriting and you're just like, "hope i don't die."


pastu call mama... lagi la. terus aku pecut 100m masuk dalam toilet (ok2 bukan pecut just jalan laju2 je) sedu sedan dalam tu.. tah la, lately nape tah air mata nie murah sangat. semalam mirul tanya, " yang sedih sangat nie kenape? sape mati?" huargh!! kalau aku cakap aku yang terasa mati dekat dalam nie blh tak? 






ruza tanya..


rodod tanya..


kema tanya..


ummi tanya..


tapi aku nak cerita dengan mama je.. mama, cepat baik ye. angah rindu la nak pillow talk dengan mama macam dulu2. terasa beban dalam dada nie dah berat sangat. 


ya allah, andai jiwa kosong ini mengharap hadirmu, datang la. pohon ku selalu, segala ujian dan dugaan keatasku dilembutkan. redha menghadapi hujan yang tak kunjung reda ini. makin lebat dari hari ke hari. 
ya rabbi, bukan aku membawa diri. tapi aku dah sedar berapa harga diri. andai dia bahagia tanpaku disisi, kau kekalkan la senyumnya. kerana waktu aku merasa hanya mampu menangis, dia memberikan ketawa dihati.


ok2...
enough derama, derama, derama (ikut pronunciation sir sidek)
ape yang aku dapat dari meeting dengan doc semalam?
dia cakap umur aku 21 (yeyeye! dia kata aku muda)
dia cakap makan je, jangan tunggu lapar (meng'gajah' la aku pas nie)
dia cakap gerd nie insyallah boleh baik
dia cakap kena wat scope lagi (waaaa!!! xmo2 x suka)
yang len?? hmmm.. biarlah rahsia


so doc comel, cute, baik hati n caring (saya tak diet & ingat saya suke suki ke nak stress????)
kita jumpe lagi 27 hb nie. ya, saya nak pergi hospital sendiri. tak mo dah susahkan orang. 
ingat nak tunggu superman la... boleh tumpang terbang! hehehehe....


m00d- happy lepas puas nangis sampai mata bengkak & gatal2 (tak sedar diri baru baik sakit)

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

a new day, a new beginning, a new adventure, a new love....



i woke up today with this feeling that everything is going to be alright. hmmm... got everything that i need. family that support and love me. friends that love, care and true to me. someone that love me for who i am. yup! just wanna be happy. no more regrets, no more tears, no more lies.... just a girl, in her heels living her beautiful life.... and the memories remains.






Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Wordless Wednesday...

Post Secret Friend / within(Reason)

coret-coret kisah kasutku....



Time is like river. You can't touch the same water twice 


because the flow that has passed will never pass again. 



dulu - dulu, masa saya sekolah la kan, saya suka amik sekeping kertas saiz A4, pastu tulis isi hati. kalau masa tu tengah bengang dengan cikgu, tulis la dalam tu. pastu lipat memolek. saiz2 kapal terbang. tak kira la, blackhawk ke, eagle ke, binatang ape ke... suke suki la... janji dapat tulis something.

sebab tu member aku yati penah cakap, bagi aqil a piece of paper and a pen, let see what she'll do... shut up!!!

Inspired By This Feeling.

tadi bila check my black book (the name of my diary) tiba2 nak gelak sendiri. bangga pon ada jgak! punye la berhabukkan! hehehehe.. alhamdulilah, sejak dua tiga menjaknye aku dah jumpa dah tempat baru untuk mengadu. thanks to him,  i'm not alone anymore. insyallah i'll never forget you.

so, esok balik, misi pertama ialah nak g tanjung emas.
wat ape?
duk dekat tanjung tu penuhkan black book...
hahaha... duduk bawah pokok cerita kisah hati.
rindu la nak wat gitu...
hmmmm....
it's funny you know... i always say how day by day nothing change. but when i look back everything is different. i'm a different person. different perspective. hmmm....




tak pernah terlintas di benakku
saat pertama kita bertemu
sesuatu yang indah tumbuh dalam gundah
harum dan merekah

tulus hatimu buka mataku
tegar jiwamu hapus raguku
membuncah di hati harapan dan suci
menyatukan janji



Monday, October 10, 2011

buat teman...

ptp class 10/10/11 4.15 pm

saat kau hadir
ada yang pergi
kini kau pergi
berlalulah.
kau tak ku nanti,
tak ku hajati.
dalam hujan renyai itu  
bukan kau lagi yang ku tunggu.




walau nafas yangku hela  
berbau jiwamu.
detik yang kukira
terdengar tawamu.
sukarnya bernafas dalam kegembiraan
senangnya tersenyum dalam kesenduan.


Setiap melodi yang berlagu
mesih setia mendendang namamu.
air mata ini masih setia
meratapi kehilanganmu.
pergilah wahai teman
agar waktu bisa berputar kembali.
miss Pooh
 

Sunday, October 9, 2011

freaky friday!!!!

An illness is like a journey into a far country; it sifts all one's experience and removes it to a point so remote that it appears like a vision.
Sholem Asch 




it's a freaky friday because of what happen in the hospital today. argh.. now i'm really in relationship with the hospital.


to the lady that past away in the hospital today:
may allah bless you. you have a family that really love you.
~ al-fatihah~


now, all i wanna do is zzzzzZZZZZZZzzzzzz....


nitety nite peeps!







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