Sunday, February 27, 2011

suke suki versi hospital..


السلام عليكم

selama lebih kurang seminggu, aku telah men 'spend' kan masa aku yang agak banyak ni dekat hospital. wat lawatan sosial. ingat dekat facebook je ke boleh bersosial?? ok.. jom intai ape bende yang aku wat..

khamis 17.2.2011
baru tiba dari tg. malim. muka selenge, sangap nak tido tapi aku gagahkan diri untuk prepare mental and physical untuk esok. hari ni tak ade ape - ape yang best. biase sya..

jumaat 18.2.2011
the big day. pukul 5 a.m nurse dah kejut mama. ask her to take a bath and remove everything from her body. hmm.. waktu nie aku dah sayu sangat. macam - macam dalam kepala aku nie. mase tunggu mama operate tu dah macam - macam bende keluar masuk otak aku. dah macam - macam lagu main dekat jantung aku. dah berape ekor butterflies men- men dekat perut aku. pendek kata, panjang cakap nervous tahap dewa aku masa tu. bila nurse tolak mama keluar baru lega hati nie. tengok mama sedar and she started talking lagi la aku rasa syukur sangat.


after a while, what a relief... alhamdullilah


sabtu 19.2.2011
mama dah start jalan though the fluid bottle is still attach to her. that very moment she prove to me once again that she's very strong. enjoy sangat masa tu sebab dapat spend time dengan mama. aktiviti aku dengan mama sama je. dia bangun, aku bangun. dia makan, aku makan. aku ngumpat, dia dengan! (sebab tu saya sayang mama saya... sebab dia best sangat).


kira aku tebus balik la masa-masa kami bersama. macam- macam aku cite dekat dia. pasal geng JJ la. g celebrate birthday ari tu la. siap tunjuk gambar geng - geng latest aku. gambar bakal menantu dia.. oppss.. terlebih sudah! ahakz.. aku cite dekat dia macam - macam and like usual, she's just listen. my best listener!


ahad 20.2.2011
ari nie mama dah jadi super active. abis satu wad mama ronda. mengalahkan nurse dengan intern! motipp?? mama kata bosan duduk je dekat bilik. mak ude aku datang. she has the same cancer like my mum so she give a lot of advise to mama. mama pon muka chillex je time dengar. aku yang stress lebih. 


masa nie tengah ramai nurse pelatih dekat hospital. aku rasa nurse lagi ramai la dari patients. paling mama suka sorang nurse dari sabah nie. nama mamat tu keith. mama suke panggil dia nurul keith. ahakz... tau la mamat tu kiut miut kuase dua!


monday 21.2.2011
hari nie aku betul-betul teruji. bangun pagi aku rasa panas sangat badan aku. nurse pon cakap ' nie sape yang sakit sebenarnye?' mula la aku demam. mama suruh aku balik tapi along cakap satu benda dekat aku yang wat aku rasa macam selfish giler aku nie. he said:
kalau ko sanggup tinggal mama sorang- sorang dekat bilik tu tak pe la ngah. 
wadde foot! waaa... along ko seksa lagi perasaan aku.


tuesday 22.2.2011
still demam lagi tapi aku chillex. mama kuat tak kan aku nak lemah betul tak?? aku perasan something today. aku dah start nampak hikmah dari semua nie. aku dengan along dah boleh communicate la. before dia macam sawan jendul je. kalau cakap dengan dia tu setakat benda- benda penting. sekarang nie aku dah boleh share banyak benda dengan along. along aku tu caring and very responsible person. belum kira family man lagi. bak kata mama.... dah boleh jadi suami orang along ko tu.


wednesday 23.2.2011
today have bad and good news. good news aku dah tak demam sangat. still batuk but dah kurang panas. nie mesti sebab jumpe doctor yang tampal kepala semalam. bad news is doktor ho (nickname mama bagi dekat sorang intern yang jaga dia. sebab doc tu suke cakap 'ho') cakap maybe mama tak boleh balik esok. sekali lagi aku terpaksa memilih. mama atau aku. aku call puan ros. she said mak kita sorang je qilah. time nie la kita nak berbakti dekat dia. waaaa.... bakpe sume orang wat aku touching nie????!!
dan aku pilih mama...


thursday 24.2.2011
good news today. the second tube dah boleh cabut. meaning mama dah boleh discharge. yahoo!!! (ceo of yahoo... motipp disitu??) alhamdulillah.... mama pon dah kuat. ready nak main futsal dia kata. hahaha.. that's my mama. 


friday 25.2.2011
aku balik TM. klau ikut hati memang tak nak balik but mama like usual said she's ok (aku belajar dari mama la nie, everything is ok and i'm gonna be fine).
kalau ikut otak memang nak balik.. aku dah rindu dengan ramai orang dekat TM.   masa along antar aku naik bas dia cakap thanks sebab jaga mama. waklu! mama aku tu... aku belum nak jadi tanggang moden lagi ok! (elelele... wat2 rock plak padahal masa along cakap macam tu aku dah rasa nak nangis dah!)




banyak yang aku belajar dari lawatan sosial dekat hospital. tentang perasaan aku. tentang impian sebenar hidup aku. tentang siapa aku. aku belajar tentang erti hidup.


pesan mama
anggap semua ujian yang kita terima sebagai kurniaan terus dari Allah. Allah nak lihat sejauh mana kuatnya iman kita pada dia. bersyukur la kerana sekurang - kurangnya kita diberi peluang kedua untuk menjalani hidup kita dengan lebih bermakna lagi.
thanks mama!
you really are my everything....





Sunday, February 20, 2011

awak,. awak kena faham...

awak kena faham kenapa saya selalu terdetik perasaan cemburu bila awak dengan perempuan lain…
sebab saya takut hilang awak...cemburu kan tanda sayang...


awak kena faham kenapa kadang-kadang saya merajuk dengan awak...
sebab saya nakkan perhatian dari awak...saya suka awak manjekan saya...


awak kena faham kenapa saya selalu call dan sms awak...
sebab masa itu saya sangat rindukan awak..dan saya nak awak tahu saya sentiasa ingatkan awak...


awak kena faham kenapa kadang-kadang saya marah dan nasihatkan awak...
sebab saya nak yang terbaik untuk awak...


awak kena faham kenapa saya tak suka awak terlalu merendah diri dengan hidup awak…
sebab saya tak nak awak putus asa dan patah semangat untuk berjaya…



awak kena faham kenapa saya buat banyak pengorbanan untuk awak...
sebab saya nak hidup selamanya dengan awak..dan saya nak awak selalu tersenyum...


awak kena faham kenapa saya selalu minta nasihat dan pertolongan awak...
sebab awak kan tulang belakang saya...


awak kena faham kenapa saya selalu ucapkan terima kasih pada awak...
sebab saya nak awak tahu yang saya menghargai awak..


awak kena faham kenapa saya selalu lambat bersiap...
sebab saya nak nampak yang terbaik depan awak...bukan orang lain...


awak kena faham kenapa saya suka sangat mengadu dekat awak...
sebab awaklah diari saya...tempat saya luahkan semua...


awak kena faham kenapa saya suka berada di samping awak…
sebab saya rasa disayangi dan dilindungi…


awak kena faham kenapa saya selalu sebut nama awak…
sebab saya nak orang tahu awaklah yang bahagiakan saya …


awak kena faham kenapa saya rahsiakan sesuatu dari awak..
sebab saya tak nak awak risau...


awak kena faham kenapa saya selalu risaukan awak kalau awak sakit...
sebab saya tak nak apa-apa terjadi dekat awak..


awak kena faham kenapa kadang-kadang saya sensitif dengan awak...
sebab saya terlalu sayangkan awak...


awak kena faham kenapa saya selalu beritahu kat awak apa yang saya buat...
sebab awak penting dalam hidup saya...


awak kena faham kenapa saya selalu menangis kerana awak...
sebab hanya awak yang mampu ceriakan saya semula...


awak kena faham kenapa saya nak tahu semuanya pasal awak…
sebab saya nak belajar fahami diri awak…


awak kena faham kenapa saya tak suka bila awak suruh saya tinggalkan awak dan cari orang yang lebih baik dari awak…
sebab saya terima awak seadanya…
saya sedia hidup dengan awak walaupun awak tak punya ape asalkan awak setia...


awak kena faham kenapa saya sedih bila awak marah saya…
sebab saya salahkan diri saya kerana tak mampu jadi yang terbaik untuk awak…



awak kena faham kenapa saya takut kehilangan awak…
sebab saya dah rasa awak sebahagian dari hidup saya…


awak kena faham kenapa saya sayangkan awak sangat-sangat...
sebab…
…saya tak perlukan sebab tuk sayang awak…
sebab awak adalah awak...


dan awak kena faham kenapa saya beritahu semua ni kat awak…
sebab saya nak awak tahu apa yang saya buat semuanya kerana saya sayangkan awak…


sekarang awak fahamkan?


Saturday, February 19, 2011

Epic Fail: who, what, where you stand?

cool art makes sense











btw, jsyk......


aku balik kawen??

Assalammualaikum...

~sigh~

nak tau tak buruknya gossip girl nie? buruk nye bila aku yang balik kampung selama seminggu nie dituduh baliik sebab nak kawen.. halluuu!! macam ner la aku nak kawen wei??!! calon pon tak de.. oopppsss.. ade tu ade tapi mamat 2 tengah, tengah, tengah... arrghhh malas la nak pikir. biaq pi la.

sejujurnya aku balik sebab mama..
aku balik sebab i choose mama above everything.

aku ingat lagi time aku bagi tau achik (bos aku yang sawan), yang aku nak balik mu0 over the weekend and i said the reason is because i wanna get married. and he believe me. his reason for believing me is, " aku kan innocent!" cis!! huhuhu...

best memang best sebab sebelum aku balik, ramai orang bertanggungjawap membuat aku happy, bagi aku kata - kata semangat and wat aku rasa lebih kuat dari biase..

yang paling aku ingat:

~ mira, mia & ummi : depa peluk aku, hold my hand and say i'm strong and i can make it through this rain...

~ achik & adik : sebab you all make me happy.. siap pi tangkap cengkerik sebelum balik..


~ kema, kak rozu & ct : for noticing something is wrong with me.. thanks for asking.. really.. i felt bad for not even able to answer your questions.

~ puan & cik kem : thanks sebab amik berat and make me feel like i actually belong somewhere.

~tn. penasihat & bapak : thanks sebab amik berat bila saya nak balik. siap antar, siap pesan jaga diri. check pagi -pagi tu whether aku ok ke tak... bawak pi makan - makan.. touching sangat dengan korang!!


waaa...
sebenarnya ramai lagi aku nak say thank you to but sorry la busy sikit. time macam nie la nk bual - bual dengan mama, nak manja - manja lebih sikit.. so, till next time..
pray for my mama ok!

Saturday, February 12, 2011

my mum is amazing!!

the greatest gift i ever had...
it came from Allah,
i call her MAMA.


when we talk about the person we call mother, mama, mummy, amma, ibu, ummi, mak, bonda (i wish my future children call me with this name) emak or what so ever name we use to call the very special person who has scarifies so much for us, the meaning, the indication is still the same; that woman is the queen of our heart. someone used to tell me that a girl will be a woman when she become a mother. hmmm... that special ha! it make me think a lot about my mama.
whether we realize it or not, our mum has done a lot for us. ok, some might not agree with me as they have bad memories with their mother. however, you must remember something. that not all mother are like that. my salute to all wonderful mother out there who has done an awesome job raising their children up. remember that Allah said that mother is the person we should respect and honour after Allah and Rasullah. that has shown how special our mother are.
my mama..
a very, very simple person with a big heart <3.>responsible to tell me to stop buying shoe (though i dont even bother to listen at least i'll pretend to stop buying for a few weeks.), need her to tell me not to do stupid stuff like site seeing the whole day for food. my mama is so amazing in the sense of whenever i wanna do something against her will or something like bad deed, trust me, something bad will happen. for instance, last week, i wanna drove my friend's car to pick him up at the KTM. my mama already told me not to drive anyone's car here. ok, i'm a very 'obedient' daughter so that is why i was thinking to drive the car. wanna know what happen to me? the moment i close the door, i hand was wedged! at the back of my hand. can you believe that? my hand was badly swollen. when my friend ask me what happen, they thought i was kidding when i told them what really happen. see!! i was only thinking

to do it, haven't done it and there you go. present straight away! there's a lot of those special insident but let it remain my secret.. gosh, i think my mama has psychic power..
mama,
i really, ardently love and adore you. love you with all my heart and you are the best thing in my life. because you found the best in me that no one could ever see. please Allah, dont take her away from me. at least not untill i can pay her back for everything that she has gave me. i owe her my entire life. please Allah, i pray that if one fine day you have to take her away from me, let it be right after i made her happy because she has cried a lot because of me. i know you are listening to every pray that i have made and going to make. my only hope and wish right now is that i can hug and she is there beside me when everything wonderful happen in my life. i want to walk her around the park when she is too weak to walk on her own. tell her how she used to scream to me whenever i tease her. i really want to touch her wrinkled face and tell her that this is the time when she look the most beautiful. my mama is an amazing person this world can ever see.
for those out there, cherish you mother because they are the one who cry with you when the rest of the world are laughing at you. cherish them before it's too late

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

tears drop on my guitar...

Assalammualaikum...

Sejujurnya aku cakap aku dah terlalu hampir dengan putus asa. Kenapa? Sebab aku rasa ujian yang datang pada aku ni terlalu berat untuk aku hadapi. Tapi mungkin ini wake up call for me. Sebagai manusia yang hina dan daif ni, memang aku kerap khilaf. Kerap terlupa dan kini aku diberi ruang dan peluang untuk menebus segala – galanya. Sepanjang minggu ni kerap aku menitiskan air mata. Sometimes, the person who i talked to talk about something else yet i cried. Then i learned that everythings happens for a reason (something which i learn a long time ago but i tend to forgot).


The last two weeks really challenge myself. I tend to keep everything as i dont want to look weak in front of the others.





Ya Allah ya tuhanku, kuatkanlah diriku.
Lindungi aku dari putus asa.
Jika kuharus mati, ketemukan aku dengan mu kerana aku ingin mendekati dirimu sehina apapun diriku.

Seriously people, love you parents. Stay healthy and happy! Love yourself too!




Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Auburn: "All About Him" Official LYRICS Video 2010

"He asked for a kiss, so I gave him two. He said well thank you baby, I said you're welcome boo."



aku dokter cinta??



السلام عليكم

Dah beberapa hari aku tertanya – tanya. Termangu – mangu, terpinga – pinga.. hmm... soalan yang sibuk bermain – main dibenak hatiku. Aku silap amik kos ke? Hmm... ke muka aku ini memang muka masalah? Dari aku kecik sekolah dulu, nie cerita dolu- dolu la. Zaman choki – choki dengan super ring dulu. Member – member aku selalu mintak tolong aku, minta advise sebenarnye. Kalau advise kewangan ke, akademik ke, sukan ke tak pe la jugak. Aku still boleh accept lagi. Nie tak! Ade ke patut tanya aku pasal C.I.N.T.A! memang tak patut. Tidakkah mahluk Allah semua ini sedar yang aku! Ye aku bukan kamu tak pernah bercinta! Silap kaunter la beb!

Hmmm... sebab tu sekarang nie, dalam kepala lutut otak aku nie ade macam – macam falsafah cinta, idealogi la, metadologi la.. dan macam- macam lagi la! Hmm... not to say that i am a good adviser when it comes to love matter. Sometimes love is not something that we need to figure out. We need to experience it to know what love is really all about.

Kadang tu ade yang call 2, 3 pagi tanye macam ner dia nak wat dengan awek dia. Adoiyai.. sawan aku! Belum lagi kes nangis – nangis meleleh air liur. Kalau dah tahap nie memang aku lemah! Pasai pa, chek x pandai pujuk orang merajuk! Mintak maap banyak – banyak no chek!

When people say:

~ love means you dont have to say i’m sorry.

Bullshit!! When you are in love, you have to say i’m sorry thousand of time. Reason? You dont want to hurt you love one feeling that why you keep on explaining and begging for forgiveness and understanding!

~ love at first sigh.

Ok fine! It happens but seldom. Like one in a million. It takes time . espeacially if you been hurt before.

Banyak lagi nasihat. Tapi kena jumpe personal la.. mne boleh main bubuh je kan! Tak gitu tuan penasihat??!!!

So people, any heart, feeling and love problem? Just call me! Harga boleh runding!

Saturday, February 5, 2011

kisah nasi lemak..





Ini kisah kami berdua..
Kisah nasi lemak library nama diberi..
Kisah nie tak la se ‘kronik’ kisah kancil mahu pon se ‘havoc’ kisah seribu satu malam. Kisah nie mengenai aku dan dia. Shanti, teman BINGO ku merangkap geng what the fish aku (geng giler-giler la) huhuhu... hidup aku memang takkan tenang kalau ada Dee disisi. And Dee, take this as a compliment! Ok enough with the introduction. Here comes the main story. Enjoy!
This incident (or accident?) happen when i was in semester ---. I’m a bit insane at that time. Don’t know why. Wait! I’m always a bit offline.. hey! I never suffer from insanity, i enjoy every moment of it. But that’s another story to share. Friday moring, me and shanti were suppose to participate in a game our classmate conduct. Game man!! Friday morning??!! Are you kidding me. All i can think of is my Muchuk and bed! Ok fine! I played those game but only for about 30 minutes. Then Dee ask me to go out. I said lets eat nasi lemak! Jom!!!!!!


Huargh....................
Sengal jend0l....
Then we go and enjoy our nasi lemak. Huhuhu...
That is the most best + delicious + funny + crazy = nasi lemak that i ever eat!
Huhuhu...
Then we went back to the classroom with innocent face! On the way back we even dicussed our excusses and even reminded each other not to burp! Hahaha.. till today, they still wonder where the heck that we go during those ten minutes..
Crazy funny moment!
Seriously Dee, i miss the moment we have before! We dont even have any same class this sem! No wonder i’m so bored! So next time, anyone interested in eating nasi lemak, please remember this story!

Reset



videokeman mp3
Reset – Charice Song Lyrics

Oooh yeah woahhhh

My pulse is getting fast
My heart is gonna crash
Hey I got something to say to you
We’ve been on overdrive
Maybe we should take some time apart

I’m always on the road and putting on a show
I know you’re really trying to keep up with me
Baby we’re compatible
But you must be sick of all the bull
I pull on you

Now I’m having second thoughts about us
I think I like it like it was
I know I shut the system down
But now I wanna bring it back up

We need to reset don’t wanna regret
Not making up with you
You and I fading from the screen
Can we prevent a freeze
We’re losing power and we’re spinning down
Suddenly back up dedicated now
We crashed but we can turn it
Around (and ’round and ’round)
After a reset

‘Ey start it up again yeah oh ~
Start it up wooaah ~

I’m tired of the nights without you by my side
We only seem to text and email
So you come on the road
Maybe we don’t have to fall apart
It’s working for a while
But I see through your smile
This isn’t the life you signed up for
You tell me It’ll be okay
As you board a different plane back to where you were

Now are you having second thoughts about us
I know that I’m still in love
I know I shut the system down
But don’t you wanna bring it back up

We need to reset don’t wanna regret
Not making it up with you
You and I fading from the screen
Can we prevent a freeze
We’re losing power and we’re spinning down
Suddenly back up dedicated now
We crashed ~ but we can turn it around
After a reset ~

[Rap]

Hey hey! Pakinggan mo naman ako (Hey hey! Please listen to me)
Hey hey! I think this is the way na dapat gawin (Hey hey! I think this is the way it should be done)
Reset! Sana naman ika’y sang-ayon din (Reset! I hope you’ll also agree)
To all the things that I’m gonna say
I wish ika’y pumayag din (I wish you’ll agree)
Mag-aagree ka ba? (Will you say yes?)
If I tell you that “Magsimula tayo para tayo’y sobrang happy na” (If I tell you that “Let’s start all over again so we can be happy”)
We should reset all this
Ibalik ang nakaraan (Let’s turn back the time)

Start it up
Start it up
Oh baby
Start it up again
Ohhh
Start it up
Start it up

We need a reset (reset~)
Don’t wanna regret
Not making up with you
You and I fading from the screen
Can we prevent a freeze (Can we prevent a freeze~)
We’re losing power and we’re spinning down
Suddenly back up dedicated now
We crashed (We crashed ~) but we can turn it around ~ (and ’round and ’round)

We need a reset (oh ~ ) don’t wanna regret
Not making up with you (making up with you)
You and I fading from the screen (fading ~ from the screen)
Can we prevent a freeze
We’re losing power (we’re losing power, we’re losing power) and we’re spinning down
Suddenly back up dedicated now
We crashed but we can turn it around ~
After a reset

Start it up again ~
Start it up
Start it up

hmmm…

Don’t want to fall..apart…again



Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Saatku Pejamkan Mata

m00d meter