part time vs full time?

When someone treats you like you're just one of many options, help them narrow their choice by removing yourself from the equation.

Sometimes you have to try not to care, no matter how much you do. Because sometimes you can mean almost nothing to someone who means so much to you. It's not pride- it's self respect. 

Don't give part-time people a full-time position in your life. Know your value and what you have to offer, and never settle for anything less than what you deserve.

so? just carry on.....

love never bring us down.... insyallah....

when love is observed, love is preserver..

when respect is showed, respect will be received..

assalamualaikum and hello there..


before reading this post, you guys must watch the video above.
i was touch when the guy said ' pegang pada iman : hold to our faith'
you and him might be different:
age, faith, culture, look, race .... (the list goes on and on)
but love always be the reason why you are together.
beautiful ambiguous...

if people say love hurt, they are confuse..
love doesn't hurt
betrayal hurt, lies hurt, losing someone you love hurt, break up hurt.
love??
love is the only thing that keeps you moving when others falls apart...


peringatan untuk hati ini:

kau dan aku mungkin berbeza
nama, rupa dan cara
kau dan aku memang tak sama
gaya, umur dan jiwa
padaku cukuplah aku tahu
kau punya iman dan hati
itulah yang membuat aku terus dan tetap menanti
untuk kau menjadi imam disetiap solatku nanti

untuk belahan jiwaku yang separuh lagi
aku sentiasa disini
merindui
mengingati
menanti
hadirmu mendamaikan resah hati
biarlah kau kata aku gila begini
sampai kau hadir
menyanyi lagu cinta abadi

diam itu menyakitkan??

assalamualaikum and hello there...

esok ada test poem! saja nak tulis pasal diam hari nie sebab hari nie saya banyak gelak. banyak sangat! thanks to DOUGHNUT! hey doughnut, i'm no supergirl, i hope u  like me as i am!


diam itu sebenarnya sebaik2 jawapan bagi pertanyaan2 bodoh yang sering orang lontarkan kepada kita. ye, baik diam dari jawap tapi menyakitkan hati. diam tu jugak baik sebab diam buat kita kurang dosa. ye la kurang cakap, kurang la kita mengata. kurang la menyumpah! betul tak....

tapi satu benda pasal diam nie yang kita kadang2 tak sedar. diam itu menyakitkan! yup... amat menyakitkan.
kadang2 aku diam (sekadar bagi contoh, tak ada kena mengena dengan yang mati, apatah lagi yang hidup) sebab memang tak ada benda nak cakap. selalu tu sebab banyak benda nak cakap. tapi elok diam je takut perkataan tu menyakitkan. lalu orang sekeliling menganggap itu sangat , hmmmm.... macam mana nak cakap ye?? ha, bahasa sopannye 'sangat kurang ajar'. pada aku lebih baik kita diam dari menyakiti.

memang diam itu menyakitkan bagi yang berdiam diri sebab banyak memendam tapi itu lebih baik. sebab dari lebih banyak hati2 orang disayangi terluka, lebih baik diam.

aku pernah letak quote nie sebagai status fb (bekas fb)
when friend become un-friend
when love become unlove
when we become me
i choose to walk away
and silent is my best company.

fb pon jadi bekas. semua gara2 sentap dengan orang2 tertentu. hahahaha... emo betul aku time tu.

memanglah elok meluahkan ape yang kita rasa. BUT (there's a big but there), seingat korang la kan, berapa banyak sesi luahan rasa, perasaan dan amarah korang pernah end up dengan good result or feed back? did the other side/ person ever understand? seriously guys from my own experience they dont. even when they say they do, they dont actually!!
no body know how you feel, what you been through. they have to walk a milestone in your shoes to know exactly how you feel. how many of your so-called real friend willing to do that? dont even bother to think. none! that's reality...

i dont say that silence is the best answer to every problem. maybe if somebody (that person is always me!) can shut the hell up and starts listen, problem will be solve. yes, you can speak whatever you feel but dont be surprise when you realize that the only person who really understand how you feel is a piece of paper.
yup, only a piece of paper that eventually turn into paper airplane.

terbuang atau dibuang??

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

— Marilyn Monroe

assalamualaikum and hello there...

nak cakap pasal kawan la hari nie. KAWAN???? la pasal kawan lagi. asyik cakap pasal kawan je. tak boring ke miss Q?? hmmm.... nk wat guane. pakwe xde kan. eh, betul la! dia bukan pakwe kita. but someone special in my heart. sebab perhubungan tak memerlukan label. cukup kalau dia dan aku je yang paham. sebab dalam kisah kami hanya ada aku dan dia. hmmmm... so sweet!! hehehe... ok2 cukup psl 'dia'.

sambung citer pasal kawan. hmmm.... pernah tak berada, bertenggek, berenang, menyelam ke, ape2 la dalam situasi dimana kita rasa serba salah? hmmm... antara hati aku dengan hati ko (kawan kita nie la). hmmm.... dari zaman tok kaduk lagi aku dah dibagitahu bahawasanya susah nak puaskan hati orang. (termasuklah hati kita sendiri). bagi contoh la macam kita ada kawan yang suka hiburan ke jalan2. kita nie plak jenis yang duduk rumah. tak ke kes nanye klau kita keje nak ngikut dia je kan!

aku pernah cakap dengan kema jamil, anak tiri aku " cara terbaik untuk mengekalkan satu persahabatan tu ialah dengan meletakkan sedikit gap (orang kampung aku kata jurang, bukan jenama gap 2!). sebab kalau kita selalu jumpa pon akan lama2 jadi gaduh, tak puas hatilah."

kadang2 dalam hidup nie kita kena pikir jugak tentang orang lain. yup! orang lain. ok, fine ko pandai aku pakai dadu jawap soalan. i'm cool with that. tapi tak perlu kot ang suka2 hati je men atur2 hidup orang. yes, sebab tindak tanduk kita akan buat orang sekeliling kita rasa macam diaorg nie cuma menumpang je dalam hidup kita. kalau setakat gaduh rebut rumah ke, assignment ke. ala... bende ciput je la. chillex k!!!

kadang2 kita rasa macam kita terbuang tapi sebenarnya kita yang membuang. kita lakukan sesuatu tanpa sedar yang kita dah sakitkan hati orang lain. kata2 itu lebih hebat dari bom atom mahupun baz00ka ye!

1.sedar diri. dengan siapa kita bercakap.

2. jagalah tutur kata kita.

3. gunakan kata2 yang manis (mata keatas, tangan didada... hehehe gurau je!)

4. cuba jangan emosi sangat.

5. bende kicik may0ng jangan kecoh2. (tok sah ya ngadu dekat lecturer bagai. babe, ko dah tau bangka kot!!)

kurangkan kontroversi, tingkatkan prestasi.... gunalah nokia c3!!!

hehehehehe....

true Q: pretty ugly..

Hari nie aku panas ati sikit sebab aku rasa macam terhina. Ok fine! Bukan macam tapi memang! Yes aku rasa terhina. Satu statement telah membuatkan aku sentap sesentap sentapnye! Pernyataan yang sememangnya hakikat... Gini cite dia..

 

Ada satu hari tu aku dengan geng kerik aku kluar gi minum.. Serius kesian dekat dia sebab bila aku lapar je aku cari dia. Kema, ummi, mira, yufi tah berape ramai lagi yang selalu jadi mangsa temankan aku makan. Padahal aku bukan makan sangat pon sebenarnya.. Pasal pas aku makan bukan wajib sedawa tapi wajib muntah. Sadis cite nie...

Hello miss Q!! Side track again..

Ok back to the future.. Tengah- tengah aku makan tibe tibe aku terasa getarnya. Terkeluarlah statement panas, mendidih n kontroversi. 'lelaki cuma cari perempuan yang cantik je'

say what?????

Pergh.. Gua dah panas dah...

Seriously guys?

Are you kidding me!

Tibe-tibe terdetik dibenak aku...

Sape yang letak penanda aras cantik tu??

Kau??

Aku??

Atau juri malaysia's most beautiful??

Hmmm....

Weeee... Cantik tu benda?? Anak sape?? Macam mane??

Kata cik MiMi.. Cantik tu macam cinta.. SubStrak.. Subjective + abstract..

Beauty lie in the eye of the beholder. Pada aku cantik dah kalau dia cakap tak mencarut. Cantik dah kalau dia tak suke tikam orang dari belakang. Cantik kalau dia tak merokok. Cantik kalau dia pakai sopan. Cantik kalu dia sayang mak ayah. Cantik kalau dia hormat orang. Cun sudah kalau dia tak gedik mengada- ngada. Cun saja kalau tahu masak sikit - sikit.. hahaha.. Mesti korang kata senangnya nak nampak cantik depan aku.. Jawap aku senang... Tak perlu jadi perempuan melayu terakhir depan aku untuk nampak cantik. Cukup jadi diri sendiri. Yup! Be who you are, say what you want coz those who mind doesn't matter and those who matter doesn't mind..

Aku tak paham la. Macam mana yang baru betul - betul cantik? Adoiyai... Sakit dada aku memikirkannya.. (chillex la miss Q!bukan masuk exam pon!)

Apa gunanya kau berlebih besar.

Tiada hodohnya kau kurang jelita.

Kerana apabila kita selami,

Sempurnakah kau didalam hati?

Tiada bezanya tinggi atau rendah.

Kau tetap manis walau tak secerah.

Terimalah bagaimana kita dicipta,

Didalam diri pastikan sempurna!

Adalah motipp kalau kita hanya cari yang cantik. Gi bukak google search cari orang yang cantik. Pastu tanya diorang. 'Couple yok!' Mesti diorg tak nak punye. Unless korang matlutfi90 ke.. The other khairul ke.. Zaxx in the house ke... Hahaha.. Gini la.. Allah pon dah janji lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik and vise versa. Bukan lelaki yang handsome untuk perempuan yang cun. Bukan2.. So?? Renung - renungkan dan selamat beramal!

Pesanan buat jejaka- jejaka diluar sana. Memang kami bukan secantik siti nurhaliza, tak sejelita rozita mahupun semanis heliza. Tapi nilailah kami sebagai kami. Yes! Kerana yang cantik itu pasti pudar. Namun aku pasti yang tetap akan tinggal ialah perasaan yang indah..

Ok mesti boys and guys yang bace entri nie akan kata aku berat sebelah sebab aku girl. Haruslah aku baking girls kan. Nope. I'm liberal. Yes, i agree with you guys. There are also girls that search for hansome and good looking boyfriends.  so it equal and normal. We want a perfect partner but note that, we dont come to love by finding a perfect person but by loving an unperfect person perfectly. Beautifully unperfect!

 

To my sweetheart.. Saya tak cantik macam girl lain out there sebab saya tak suka make up nie sume.. Hidung saya tak mancung, mata saya tak bulat...(weee.. Bakpe aku kutuk diri sendiri nie! Motipp...) Tapi saya boleh jadi cantik untuk kamu.. Just for you.

 

Doa aku.. Tuhan kirimkanlah aku kekasih yang baik hati.. Yang mencintai aku apa adanya... Amin.

aku tak faham la...: confuse version

assalamualaikum and hello there..

my dearest, i've to admit something hurtful yet very THE true..

i'm not perfect.

huhuhuhu..

today, i get back home early as something terrible happen. my inspector's hubby pass away. i really wanted to see her but i'm not feeling well so i decide to stay home. dont know what else to say because words cant describe what she feels and thinks. well, the only thing i can say is:

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal..

al-fatihah for cik sharom..

ok.. that not everything that i wanted to say. what i want to tell everyone today is a story of confuse.

when i reach home, i was freaking tired. so, i wanted to take a bath. well that's what everyone does after a long hot day right? ok, as i was taking my bath, i realize something. something was wrong. very, very wrong. i used shower foam instead of shampoo and vice versa. i was so sure till i realize there's something wrong with the smell of the shampoo and it did feels right. gosh!what's wrong with me?? ok.. maybe i was too tired, maybe i was daydreaming, maybe i was thinking about something else... i don't know.

however, i'm so sure that everyone has the same experience like this maybe in different situation. a friend of mine confused between sugar and salt. she used salt for the coffee and sugar for the dishes. she was so nervous because that was the first time her fiancée visited her family. hahahaha! what a joke.

my brother was once confuse between meat and beef. sometime between vegetable. ok but it's normal for boys to get confuse in this matter.

moral of the story is it's ok to get confuse as long as you are not embarrass to ask and be confident.

confident tu penting walaupun salah!!

beza mmg berbeza. part 2

السلام عليكم

entry kali nie sangat amat serius kerana saya tengah dalam mood sedih, terkilan, benci, marah, bengang, bengkek, menyirap, sawan dan banyak lagi la.

so apa beza " saya bukan benci dia, cuma tak suke je"

ok, bila kita marah emosi kita memang takkan stabil. we tend to say thing that we are going to regret at the end of the day. benci dengan tak suka ni or in English hate and dislike. the different are actually very small. it's just the matter how deep the feeling is. when we hate somebody, we dont even want to see that person face till the day we die. but dislike is like we are uncomfortable with something but we still can take/ handle it. like i say it depends on the situation. when we are angry, sometimes we dont really mean what we say. it just a slip of a tongue.

however, we often come across people who cant differentiate those two feeling. hmmm... we heard people say ' benci tau!' when they are just uncomfortable with that person. please people, evaluate what you really feel before saying it out loud. it hurts you know; to know that somebody hate you.

langkah menangani sekiranya seseorang menyatakan yang mereka benci anda.....

let say somebody say; aku benci ko. sila jawab begini, (dengan muka kerek) 'ade aku kesah' pas tu blah. sebelum meninggalkan tempat kejadian, sila toleh balik and tarik nafas panjang sebelum cakap " aku benci ko banyak mana ko benci aku." then gelak evil!! please note that, you have to leave that place ASAP to avoid sekysen 302 from happening.

tapi jangan la saling membenci. kitakan bersaudara. mane la tahu 1 fine day you'll marry to that person family ke ape ke. kan dah jadi kes nanye tu.. (tah betul ke tak ejaan aku tu, hentam saja la labu). ke let say you are in time of need ke. hmm.... something to think of.

p/s: aku memang motivator 1st class kan... huahuahua..

beza mmg berbeza. part 1

kisah seng heng pertama. seng heng? natam tu? hmm... seng heng pnye motto 'beza mmg berbeza'

ape yang aku nak cite pada musim cuti sem nie? ok ape beza statement nie:

it's not that he don't believe in you.

he just don't trust you.

think hard. try to read between the line. got it? meaningful right..

well when someone talk to you like that you might want to sit down first. that statement is so strong it makes you wanna take a deep look into what you have done. 'believe' and 'trust' are two different words with the same meaning. when someone trust you that same person must also believe in you. but when that statement is utter, it only mean one thing, and one thing only. that particular person has lose his/her faith in you.

what i don't understand is why you still have to use that statement? just say it straight to the point. maybe it make it more melodramatic. maybe...

if your parents said it, man you are in big deep trouble.

if your partner, you are tremendously screwed up!

if your friend, maybe you have to ask for your friend's forgiveness.

who ever said it, for whatever purpose, just take a deep breath. believe that everything happen for a reason.