my life... miserable.. happy.... sad.... love.. hatred.... friendly

have u ever fall in love?

love?

1 word.. 4 alphabet.. that holds a thousand,million meaning & story...
i've once been told that the greatest love story of all is not romeo n Juliet neither shah jehan n mumtaz..
the greatest luv story of all belongs to u.. yup u.. bcoz when u fell in luv, u r writing an epic luv story any1 could ever have..
this is my epic luv story. when it's gonna end? i cant tell u but what i can assure u is when i luv dat someobdy, i luv him wif all my heart and soul.. this i promise u...


i'm just wondering why oh why my heart n my mind dont act the same way?
luv didn't visited my heart that much as i enjoy doing stupid funny thing more than think bout which boy 2 tackle..

da very 1st boy dat i like is Mr.A..
dis happen when i was in form 5.. say wat? form 5???? u guys might think i was kidding or fooling u.. no i'm not.. the very 1st time i ever like a boy is when i was in form 5.. he's my class monitor aka hostel's treasurer.. he's simple, dont talk 2 much, luv 2 smile n very kind-hearted..
people been gossiping us 2gether.. (like dis!!) but now i dont even noe where he's now..
hmm... his face is really something.. whenever i look into his eye, i felt calm... maybe because he's the only guy who didnt judge me. maybe.......
thanks Mr.A bcoz u r one of da reasons i go to skul when the rest of the skul is killing me..

then i go to national service..
comes da 2nd luv story..
si sekut Oreo n si Apple Hijau.. (dia sekut Oreo aku Apple Hijau nmpk x prsmaan dia dkt sini??)
we're so close yet nobody in da camp noe but us..
* ahakz.. sory guys coz i've been keeping dis all by myself.. coz i noe u'll act the same way u guys did when u noe bout this..
he is so sweet.. i dont noe why i like being his friend.. i just noe i did..
ham.. i dont noe wat u want, i just want u 2 noe i'm different from da rest..
i'm not da girly2 type.. not da sweet2 type..

i'm no where near perfect.. i eat all da time, i fall for boys easily(i don't fall in luv, i'm just testin' da gravity.. n it's still work)..

i make excuses 4 evrythin', i've best frens and enemies.. i've drama n memories..
i'm hopin' 1 day i dont need a fake smile.. i live by quote dat explain exactly wat i'm goin' through..
(n my dat's life) i live it, luv it n learn from it..

ooopppssssC....


this is the time when incik H aka incik mat come into my life..
da dorky ever after love story..
he's good looking, incredible (not incredible hulk okey!! he has his own credibility).
i dont like him bcoz he's good looking.. nope.. that's not da reason why.. i like him bcoz he is sensitive in da sense of he noe what girl feel.. i think la.. i just like da way he act n respond everytime i talk to him..
feels like he understand what i felt without me telling him how i felt..

but then it just suke2.. sje nk kacau org yang ptut dikacau... huahuahua..





next person... hhhhhmmmmmmmmmm.....
~sigh~

i dont noe wat i felt 4 him..
i dont like 2 talk 2 him.. (segan beb!!)
bcoz he's sumbody n plus he's a hot item in dis place (not la bcoz he a good looking guy or something, just bcoz he's quite well known)..
helloooooo.... TTYN..
but i cant control myself everytime i'm wif he..
i always want 2 look at him..
see his face..
in love, u don't get to choose...
u just fall & end up with someone in front of u who is wrong or so not your type!! yet it feels so right....
argh... no more..
stop dis feeling please...

gosh...
how i wish i can go back 2 da time when i dont even bother about boy..
but in da mean time, dis shoes'i luver who r not a girl not yet a women will always try to seek for her 1.. da 1 dat was made 4 me..
so 4 da man that ive been looking 2 find dis is da msg:
gosh man, wat took u so long 2 come 2 me??

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