me, myself n I.. my kisah kasut...

•170cm tall.
•I don’t know what I want at the moment.
•I’m not happy. (not really, just a lil gloomy rite now..)
•I hate my friends.
•I hate my life.
•I hate my grades.
•I can drive.
•I’m bored of driving.
•I have a white handbag.
•I love dancing. (luv it very much, but I’m shy 2 dance in front of da public)
•I go clubbing every week.
•Shopping is bullshit.
•I have a tattoo of a star.
•I got my navel pierced. ahaks
•I have friends that take drugs.
•90% of my friends smoke.
•I still hang out with my ex, even though our break up was rather nasty.
•I’m studying Fashion.
•I have a business running.
•I hate cartoons.
•I hate someone. (it’s so true, but I hate 2 admit it.. I’m suck!)
•I have 10 Lollipops handbags.
•I buy CLEO every month.
•My parents don’t know about my blog. (I’m gonna let dem noe sooner..)
•I have an iPod.
•I don’t have faith in the current “one”.
•My school mates know about my blog.
•I wanted to be a fashion designer.
•I love rock emo bands.
•I hate it when people cancel last minute meet ups.
•I’m a rebel.
•I don’t believe in love.
•High school's filled with drama.
•My parents have faith in me.
•I’ve bought shoes this month. (technically I bought shoes every month!! I luv shoez..)
•I hate sports.
•I heart Italian food.
•I hate meeting new people.
•I hate nail polish.
•The mother bear gives me hugs.
•People should start appreciating me. (so TRUE!!! Noe me 1^st than u’ll noe how I’m)
•High school was the worst time of my life. (only when I was in Form5.. have my schoolmate)
•I have red hair. (black n will turn grey in another 40 years..)
•One Utama is my second home. (TS, MP n DP is my second home..)
•I’m a guy. (I not a girl not yet a women..)
•I’m scared of my Biology result exam which I’m going to face someday tomorrow. (TESL student)
•I hate vacations. (luv it so damn much..)
•We’ll last :)
•I believe in long distance relationships. (we’ll work it out sum how..)
•I’m going to get high and smoke weed one day soon.(pray dat I never do dat..)
•I’ve robbed an old lady.
•I’m starting to like applying make-up.
•I was a tomboy.
•At times I think I still am a tomboy.
•I love bitching about people behind their backs
•I still have a best friend. (more than 1 ok… my gurls rock my sock!! )
•I have a cat. (hate cat.. not literally)
•I hate surprise parties.
•I hate planning parties.
•I’m hot. :P.. (at least I think I’m hot.. I don’t care about others..)
•I’m a sinner.
•I’ve got a DS light.
•I have a Wii.
•I cant live without music.
•Video games are a waste of time. (yet I buy a PS dat day…)
•I miss the father bear.
•I love being in love.
•I know how to cook.
•I have 100% freedom.
•Boys are assholes.
•I hate Math. (my mummy is a math teacher.. mummy, I’m sori!!)
•I’m happy with what I have (n appreciate wat I’ve..)
•I love horror films. (if I watch it alone..)
•I slept in my parents’ room for 3 days after watching Scream when I was a kid.
•My old friends keep in touch with me.
•I don’t read newspapers.
•The news is such a waste of time.
•Blogging is a waste of time.
•I hate animals.
•I can’t live without make-up.
•I curse like a pirate.
•I’m happy with my 11 year old car.
•I hate people that are smart.
•I love Orange juice. (I luv mango da most..)
•I can’t drink for nuts.
•I believe that everyone in their teens have lost their virginity.
•I’ve got a new phone. (thanks ayah!!)
•I’m going to get a new pair of shoes by the end of this month. (it’s a must!!!)
•I love swimming.
•I haven’t worked out since March.
•I think I’m fat
•I love my friends and family (they r da best part of my life.. n only wif my real frenz.. )

jiwa kacau aka soul bother...

aku trtnye2.. mmpukah aku brtahan? mmpukh aku trus2an brmuke2 didpn mrke? mlm2 sepi aku lalui dgn air mata sbagi bntalku (sori Muchuk, not dat i dont need u anymore..). aku bnci dgn diri aku sndiri.. bnci sbb aku mnusia yg hipokrit. aku mnusia hina yg x mmpu beri bhgia pd kwn2.. kwn2? huh.. slhkah aku klau aku jd diri aku? slhkah aku?

bila bhgia bkn lg milik ku.. aku plih prgi mmbawe srpihan mruah & hrge diri yg trcalar dek sbuah prsahabatan.. smpai ble aku harus mnjd bisu? mngkin aku bkn yg trbeak.. aku akui shbt adalh antara anugerah trindah yg diberi kpd seorg insan.. tp x dlm ceritera hdup aku.. aku kdng2 snyi & sepi sndiri..

aku benci..

aku benci..

aku benci..

aku benci...!!!!!!

tlg la brhenti gnggu hdup aku.. biar la aku tenang.. ckup la luka smlm mnghantui aku.. ckup aku sepi sndiri..

kpd 'shbt',

aku bkn mmbenci.. tp aku x mmpu utk mmbenci.. aku sdar yg aku bkn sbht yg bek tp prnah x kau lhat aku sbagi sorg insan? aku manusia biase.. lyak utk stdak-tdak nye dihormati hati n perasaannye.. aku bkn mntak kalungan bunge, bkn mnta kau tlisan puisi penghargaan.. aku cme mnta sdikit ihsan dr diri mu.. aku x mnta difahami, dmengerti.. aku cme minta dsygi..

aku syg kamu wlau aku bkn yg terbaek utk mu..

maaf kn aku spjg kte bkwn.. maafkn stiap cela ku..

yg x prnah kau hargai..

i stay in luv..

about my frens...

"Everything"

You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true.
'cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus]

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

debu - debu dosa....

Ke arah mana halanya
Bagi insan yang terleka
Mengejar nikmat dunia
Bagaikan hidup selamanya
Tak peduli dosa noda
Seksa azab neraka
Hidup jauh dari rahmatNya

Terpedaya pada dunia
Pentas ciptaan manusia
Terlupa pada segala
Mengikut nafsu semata
Membiar syaitan beraja
Di hati dan juga jiwa
Mengejar dunia penuh debu dosa

Teguhkanlah iman dalam diri
Moga dikau akan merasai
Betapa indah nikmat Ilahi
Dan yakin kau akan dirahmati

Harus kau percaya dengan pasti
Dunia tidak kekal abadi
Hanya menguji cekalnya hati
Sebagai khalifah yang sejati

Tak perlu kau meragui
Andai teguh keimananmu
Pasti bahagia menanti
Di akhirat yang abadi

stress..

2day is da day i felt so frustrated.. wif UPSI!! why upsi, why? why u do dis 2 me.. i'm cikgu bitara ok!! anak kandung suluh budiman yg budiman.. gosh.. dis thin' really kills me..

sepi..

i'm surrounded by 'frens' but ironically i'm lonely..

talkin' but no 1 listen.. cryin' but no 1 feel da pain..

da truth is because i'm scared of the truth and tired of lies..

i'm definitely not da type of person dat can fake a smile.. when i technically dislike sum1.. i just walk away from dat person.. wat is da point of holding on to sumthin' dat hurt ur feeling, rite?

when u read my blog u might think i'm a lonely, depress n emo gurl.. well ur r wrong.. i luv creaking jokes.. l laugh all da time n i do noe how 2 smile ok!!

why i choose 'kisah kasut' as da title of my blog? bcoz i'm crazy about shoes!!huhuhu.. ok, that is not da reason really.. my reason is simple n sum might not understand.. it's ok bcoz u'll never noe wat kisah kasut is all about.. back 2 my reason, we wear shoes all da time rite? n people keep saying' ; try put urself in one's shoe.. truth is u wont noe wat n how others feel bcoz u r not in dat person.. no matter how hard u try, u'll never get it.. bcoz we r different, da way we c things r also different.. so when u heard sum1 say try to be in one's shoes, tell them to cut da crap!! u'll never noe how sum1 feel unless u r dat person..

no more tears

kawan...

klau tnye aku 1 thing dat can make me stay in silence 4 a few minute dat 1 thing will be friends.. t'ingt plak dkt lgu ct.. bkn ct rodod ok!! ct nurlijah;

satu persatu teman, ada dsekeliling ku,

1 persatu la jua tinggalkn driku,

cmalah aku sj, yg msih lg brtahan,

memendam rasa..

huhu.. ape mkne lgu nie dgn kisah kasut aku? jeng.. jeng.. jeng.. aku pon x tau!! hahaha.. aku sdih dgn kwn2 aku.. kwn ker?!! huhu.. iyolah, dgn org yg aku knal.. smue mnta difahami dimengerti.. but wat bout me? who is goin' 2 understand me? but then again, if i were not 4 myself, who would be 4 me.. but if i were 4 myself, who would i be?

i do learn a lot from fren.. appreciate them.. thank them.. no matter what they bring into ur life..

coz each n every 1 of them teach n give u sumthin' whether u realize it or not..