Thursday, September 19, 2013

manusia

“Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.” 
― Dr. Seuss



dah lama tak update blog. bukan sebab kekangan masa tapi kekangan perasaan. waktu marah tak elok bersumpah dan bila gembira pulak jangan berjanji. ( learn it the hard way!).. kebelakangan ini aku mengkaji diri. aku terlalu mengharap! betul..

- mengharap difahami
- mengharap disayangi
- mengharap diperlukan.
- mengharap bulan jatuh ke riba..

dan harapan aku sendiri yang membuatkan aku kecewa. jadi kebelakangan nie aku selalu bisikkan azimat nin ' jangan terlalu risau dengan benda yang tak pasti'

my final sem in my final year cost me my friendship. hilang seorang kawan sejujurnya menyakitkan. bihaa cakap yang aku terlalu berpegang pada kenangan. well, macam orang yang tak mampu melihat, bila segala-galanya kelam kita hanya mampu berpandukan instinct kita. aku pon macam tu. perasaan berubah tetapi memori itu tetap sama. jadi seperti orang buta yang kehilangan tongkatnya, aku berpaut pada memori yang terkadang hanya menyesakkan nafas aku.

setiap malam aku tanya diri aku pelbagai soalan and i often fell asleep at the question of what can i do to change it. hari ini aku dapat jawapannya. nothing. yup absolutely nothing. aku tetap orang yang sama yang dia kenal dulu kerana perasaan yang berubah aku tak mampu lakukan ape2. jadi aku move on. kisah aku masih.. mungkin panjang... cerita di bab yang lepas aku jadikan pegangan. i dont held my breath hoping for you to come back to my life. was planning to do so. if you ever wonder why. it's because you never look at me when you walk away.

it was never a mistake. always a lesson !


hey stranger,
as easy as it may seem for you to let me go, please let me be happy.
thanks for loving me.
thanks for the little ray of sunshine even for just for awhile.
i have 1 question though;
are you too important, too busy to reach for me?

Sunday, May 19, 2013

part time vs full time?


When someone treats you like you're just one of many options, help them narrow their choice by removing yourself from the equation.

Sometimes you have to try not to care, no matter how much you do. Because sometimes you can mean almost nothing to someone who means so much to you. It's not pride- it's self respect. 

Don't give part-time people a full-time position in your life. Know your value and what you have to offer, and never settle for anything less than what you deserve.




so? just carry on.....

You Might Feel Worthless To One Person, But You're Priceless To Another Quotes

Friday, April 19, 2013

pricetag

assalamualaikum and hello there....


ever wonder how much you worth?
nope like seriously...
yes, there r no price for human life but in the eye of someone what are you to them.
how much they care for you is actually your price.


' when we asked for someone's favor, that's when we know how much we worth for them'


a friend of mine share her thought. we know if someone really care for us if we ask them to help us and
 even when they really busy 
or just woke up from sleep 
or cant really help 

but still willing to help than that person really care for you. 

WOW..

now i know why.... why i love them. cause i do mean something to somebody. 




Saturday, March 30, 2013

rindu terlerai...

assalamualaikum and hello there..


typing this entry dengan hati berbunga...

jumpa adam dekat kl sentral... yuhooo... happy giler kot!! hahahaha...
ok fine. bila aku bagi tahu semua orang everybody was like "aqil, adam je pon" 

hello, just so you know i miss him ok! and for me, he's a good guy. enough said!


nota-kaki-gajah: korang jeleskan sebenarnya.. ngaku je la korang jeles!!! hahahah...



adam,
impian aku nk jumpa ko before aku abis study dah terlaksana. stay the same. i may not understand what you did n why u did it but i'll always support you...



Monday, March 18, 2013

sorry seems to be the hardest word.

life becomes easier when you learn to accept the apology you will never got.... (robert brault)


well i've forgive you.but when u did what u did, i was heartbroken. 

removing people from ur fb @ twitter @ instagram @ ym is co childish.. i rather delete my account!

when u r online, i just hope u send me a simple message asking why we be like we r now. but that's just me. well, it's always me.
 


starngers know i wont we mad for a long time why wouldn't u? for me it's not that u didnt know. u rather look beyond it. for that; i'm sorry. 



p/s: yup this 1 is really dedicated to you!

doa & impian


teringat conversation dgn mama last week,

 tiba2 mama tanya
'angah dh besar nak jadi ape?'
aku macam  '. . .'  what??
'ha la, biar doa mama dengan impian angah selari'
'ma angah dah 24 kot! baru nak tanye'
'heheheh.. ma ingt angah belum 20'
aku hampa...


ok, aku blh terima most people say i'm not mature. but from my own mum. like seriously!!!

ma, insyallah sepanjang hidup yang singkat nie angah akan tunaikan hasrat mama. biar payah biar pon apa yang mama nak bukan yang angah nak. sebab sebahagian besar kebahagian angah terbuat dari doa mama. then i just realize. no matter how much i've grew up, i'm still my mum little girl. always was, always is, always will be....




Saturday, February 23, 2013

time out...

hari ni kali kedua aku nangis sebab marcell.
aku tak mintak banyak.
i just need a time out.

hati aku yang terluka mira. memang senang cakap tapi aku yang rasa! it suck to be second for the person u put first. aku selalu yang last. selalu yang ditinggalkan, dilupakan. takpe.. memang salah aku. selalu pon salah aku.



i'm just a sucker for love. coz no matter what people did to me, i never walk away though i always say i will.

Friday, January 4, 2013

bila aku dah dewasa...


Every year on your birthday, you get a chance to start new. 



assalamualaikum and hello there,

hari ni umur aku genap 24 tahun. nothing special if you ask me. i'm just the same old girl. just a bit wiser, a bit smarter. been through a lot of pain and heart break. lie a lot and love many too...

makin aku dewasa makin sesak minda dengan pemikiran dunia.
bila aku bercerita aku mula dengan ' nnti bila aku dh besar...'
terasa macam baru umur 15 plak!

untuk yang ingat and bersusah payah untuk call, sms, post and tweet; thanks! love you more next year!
untuk yang diingati di awal usia ini: you guys are always in my heart...
my wish? i just wanna be happy...


You know you're getting old when the candles cost more than the cake. 
Bob Hope 

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