when i fall in love... dedicated to my knight in shining armor.

when i'm single, i always wonder.

when i'm going to find someone who will love me....

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

maybe i have to keep on looking. someday, somehow i'll find my knight in shining armor. i just need to keep on searching.....

I might have to wait,

I'll never give up

I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck

Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

then comes the day when i finally meet you. no word is good enough to explain how i feel.....

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

every since then, i feel so happy. you really make my day, sweetheart!

Well i know that these feelings wont end now
they'll just get stronger if i see you again
Baby im tired of being friends
I wanna know if you feel the same,
and could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Dont leave me in doubt

Everytime you see me what do u see?
i feel like im a poor man an youre the queen
oh baby, youre the only thing that i really need
baby thats why...

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night
you make me wanna hold you till the morning light
You make me wanna love,
you make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul
I know this is a feeling that i just cant fight,
you're the first and last thing on my mind
You make me wanna love
You make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul

i still remember the moment you tell me you feel the same way like i do. feel like i'm on top of the world. gosh, i couldn't even remember why but i've tears in my eyes..

I wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does
You walked into my life
To stop my tears
Everything's easy now
I have you here

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

you promise me you'll always be there for me. to love me and cherish me......

i can still remember what you say.

Saw so many pretty faces before I saw you,
Now all I see is you
I'm coming for you

Don't need these other pretty faces like I need you
And when you're mine in the world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl

I'm coming for you, one less lonely girl
I'm coming for you, one less lonely girl
I'm coming for you, one less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl

I'm coming for you, I'm gonna put you first
I'm coming for you, I'll show you what you're worth
That's what I'm gonna do, if you let me inside of your world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl

one day you ask me. why i love you at the first place. i know you are mad with me because i couldn't come out with any answer. but sweetheart, did you know what we dont need a reason to love somebody??

Is it your smile or your laugh or your heart?
Does it really matter why I love you?
Anywhere there's a crowd, you stand out
Can't you see why they can't ignore you
If you wanna know
Why I can't let go
Let me explain to you
That every little dream comes true
With every little thing you do

It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall in love with you
There isn't a way that I can show you
Ever since I've come to know you
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this
There's not a thing that I can point to
'Cause it's every little thing you do

It's everything, everything you do
That makes me fall in love with you
It's everything, everything you say
That makes me feel this way

then we argue. before i go to sleep, i receive a message from you. did you know how happy i was at that time? i cant fall to sleep the whole night just because of that message....

What makes her so right?
Is it the sound of her laugh?
That look in her eyes
When do you decide?
She is the dream that you seek
That force in your life

When you apologize, no matter who was wrong
When you get on your knees if that would bring her home

Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know
So that I can get over you

my mama said that i'm crazy now. mama, didn't you know that your daughter is in love now?

i'm so in love with him...

I wonder how I ever made it through a day
How did I settle for the world in shades of gray
When you go in circles all the scenery looks the same
And you don't know why
And I looked into your eyes
Where the road stretched out in front of me
And I realized

I'd never lived
Before your love
I'd never felt
Before your touch
And I'd never needed anyone
To make me feel alive
But then again,
I wasn't really livin'

I'd never lived...
Before your love

my day went well ever since you came into my life.. in my little world, i just need you. to hold me, to love me and i'm stronger to face the world again.......

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky
They wipe away tears that I cry
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all
You make me rise when I fall

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last
I need you by my side

'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go
I want you in my life

one day i see something different in you eyes. you don't look at me how you used to. you say i'm crazy to think of such thing but sweetheart, you've change.

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm
He came around and he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know
Or seem to care what your heart is for
Well I don't know him anymore
There's nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake
And I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune teller's right
I should have seen just what was there
And not some holy light
But you crawled beneath my veins
And now I don't care
I have no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can't touch I'm torn

i try my best to work thing out because i really love you. but we are drifting away. love has knock me down......

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

sweetheart, no matter what happen, just remember that i'll always love you. if you find someone better than me, i'm willing to let you go. although my love for you is unbreakable.

Dying inside 'cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you don't know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's a mistake if we just erase it
From our hearts and minds and I know


We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
'cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

i'll learn to let you go. i'll always pray for you happiness....

you'll always be there in my heart.

Is it cloudy where you are tonight?
Are the neon lights shining bright?
Are you looking for a place to stay to get away? (can't get away)
And the days are horses down the hill,
Running fast and there's no time to kill
And the truth is that we'll never know where love will flow

Aim high, Shoot low


Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right
Cos we couldn't seem to find a way, for love to stay
If you had another night to give
I would have another night to live
But you're never gonna see me cry the last goodbye

if one day, you get our heartbroken, just remember i'll always be there waiting for you....

cause i'm the one who will always love you.

I watched you go
You've taken
My heart with you
Oh yes you did
Every time
I tried to reach you
On the phone
Baby you're never there
Girl you're never home

So if I did something wrong
Please tell me
I wanna understand
'Cause I don't want
This love to ever end
No, no, no, no

I swear
If you come back
Here's my life
Baby, till the end of time
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby
You're the one I want
Oh yes you are

sweetheart,

sign, sealed , delivered.. i'm yours.

my boring life...

Life was always a matter of waiting for the right moment to act.
Paulo Coelho



ok, i have to admit my life is boring. no friend to hang out with. no pets to play with. i'm sucks at games, no boyfriend to babble to. to gank, to fun hobby.. gosh! my life is boring...
hey, but it's the life i choose to live. my ordinary life....

let me tell you what i do everyday.
you can listen to your favorite songs in order to keep you awake, if you want to.

1. take my medication..
it's not bluffing or trying to kidding any of you. it's the truth. everyday, twice a day. 4 types of pills, 2 in liquid form, a vitamin and a accuhaler.. yup! i'm as sick as sick can be..

2. eat, eat and eat..
ok, everyone did this but i bet you guys dont eat 24/7 right/ sometimes i woke up in the middle of the night just to grab something to eat. yup... gastric thing-ing! huhuhu.. and drinking either milk or soy milk.. 3 times a day.. or  else i'll puke..

3. puke...
yup, no kidding. heartburn and puking is a must for me nowadays. i'm dont have morning sickness.. dont get me wrong. just because of GERD. that's why i felt like wanted to throw up everytime after eating. adding muscle cramp to the list just to make my life happier. the more the merrier right!!

4. blogging and ym-ing
since i'm not into fb anymore, i always update my blog. ym-ing my mr.adviser, kema jamil aka geng A, and syakila the geng, mirul the ustaz... the list goes on and on.. if i dont on my Baby for a day, my life will be more miserable.

5. listen to music...
it can be from youtube, my Barney or my Pinky... as long as i can listen to song or maybe watch something funny i've recorded before.. it helps me to light up my day.

6. seeing my friends.
i dont have a lot of friends so, i just came and just say hi to them. soothing thing for me...

7.blogwalking and funny video moment...
another soothing things to do. helps me releasing my tension.

8.nyanyi and day dreaming...
hahaha.. love doing this everyday!!

9. sleep!!!
yipee... sleeping time.
hahahaha.... it's half past 2 so, i call it a day... good night world!! i see you tomorrow...

 

angina pectoris, my latest buddy...

Assalammualaikum and hello there...

First and foremost i'm not feeling well or i'm sick due to people's attitude around me muscle cramp on my chest aka kak gina pregnancy. I know some think that i’m lying about my disease but i’m not. I just dont like to ‘brag’ about it ok! Please people, understand a little bit..

angina pectoris???

What is angina pectoris, doctor?

Angina pectoris is a term that describes chest pain caused by myocardial ischemia - a condition in which the amount of oxygen getting to the heart muscle is insufficient. It usually occurs on exertion and is relieved by rest. Angina generally is a symptom ofcoronary artery disease. In most severe cases, it may occur with minimal effort or at rest.

How does it feels, doctor?

Angina pectoris is a common manifestation of coronary artery disease. The pain is caused by reduced blood flow to a segment of heart muscle (myocardial ischemia). It usually lasts for only a few minutes, and an attack is usually quickly relieved by rest or drugs (such as nitroglycerin). Also, it is possible to have myocardial ischemia without experiencing angina.

Typically, angina is described as a "pressure" or "squeezing" pain that starts in the center of the chest and may spread to the shoulders or arms (most often on the left side, although either or both sides may be involved), the neck, jaw or back. It is usually triggered by extra demand on the heart: exercise, an emotional upset, exposure to cold, digesting a heavy meal are common examples.

Some people experience angina while sleeping or at rest. This type of angina may be caused by a spasm in a coronary artery, which most commonly occurs at the site of atherosclerotic plaque in a diseased vessel.

Most people with angina learn to adjust their lives to minimize attacks. There are cases, however, when the attacks come frequently and without provocation - a condition known as unstable angina. This is often a prelude to a heart attack and requires special treatment, primarily with drugs. Angina affects both men and women, usually in middle age. Men are much more likely than women to experience it before age 60. It may develop weeks, months or even years before a heart attack, or may be experienced only after a heart attack has occurred.

What are the causes, doctor?

The two main causes of angina are coronary artery spasm, and atherosclerotic plaque buildup which causes critical blockage of the coronary artery.

The risk factors include:

· smoking

· sedentary lifestyle

· high blood pressure, or hypertension

· high blood fats or cholesterol

· hypercholesterolemia

· diabetes

· family history of premature ischemic heart disease

Men are at higher risk than women.

What are the symptoms, doctor?

Classic or typical angina occurs predictably with physical exertion or strong emotional reactions, and goes away just as predictably with rest. Starting immediately behind the sternum (breast bone), the pain may radiate to the left arm and shoulder or up to the jaw.

Most people describe the pain as a kind of squeezing pressure, tightness or heaviness.

There may be anxiety, increased or irregular heart rate, paleness and cold sweat, and a feeling of doom. The symptoms are like the ones for a heart attack.

In some instances, chest pain results from other types of heart problems, including diseases that affect the heart muscle itself or the valves that control blood flow through the heart. Occasionally, ulcers, gallstones, abnormal contractions of the esophagus or severe anxiety and panic attacks can cause chest pain. However, if you do experience these symptoms, your best plan of action is to get immediate help. Stop doing whatever is causing the symptoms and call 911. Lie down with your head slightly elevated. If you are not allergic to it, take one adult aspirin.

What is the treatment?

In most instances, drugs are recommended for the treatment of angina before surgery is considered. The major classes of drugs used to treat angina include the following:

Nitrates. These come in several forms: nitroglycerine tablets to be slipped under the tongue during or in anticipation of an attack; ointment to be absorbed through the skin; long-acting medicated skin discs; or long-acting tablets. The latter three forms are used mostly to prevent rather than relieve attacks. The nitrates work by reducing the oxygen requirements of the heart muscle.

Beta-blocking Drugs. These agents act by blocking the effect of the sympathetic nervous system on the heart, slowing heart rate, decreasing blood pressure, and thereby, reducing the oxygen demand of the heart. Recent studies have found that these drugs also can reduce the chances of dying or suffering a recurrent heart attack if they are started shortly after suffering a heart attack and continued for two years.

Calcium-channel Blocking Drugs. These drugs are prescribed to treat angina that is thought to be caused by coronary artery spasm. They can also be effective for stable angina associated with exercise. All muscles need varying amounts of calcium in order to contract. By reducing the amount of calcium that enters the muscle cells in the coronary artery walls, the spasms can be prevented. Some calcium-channel blocking drugs also decrease the workload of the heart and some lower the heart rate as well.

All info from: Doctor aQilah... waaa.... perasan!!

For more info- http://www.healthscout.com/ency/68/127/main.html

aku tak faham la...: confuse version

assalamualaikum and hello there..

my dearest, i've to admit something hurtful yet very THE true..

i'm not perfect.

huhuhuhu..

today, i get back home early as something terrible happen. my inspector's hubby pass away. i really wanted to see her but i'm not feeling well so i decide to stay home. dont know what else to say because words cant describe what she feels and thinks. well, the only thing i can say is:

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal..

al-fatihah for cik sharom..

ok.. that not everything that i wanted to say. what i want to tell everyone today is a story of confuse.

when i reach home, i was freaking tired. so, i wanted to take a bath. well that's what everyone does after a long hot day right? ok, as i was taking my bath, i realize something. something was wrong. very, very wrong. i used shower foam instead of shampoo and vice versa. i was so sure till i realize there's something wrong with the smell of the shampoo and it did feels right. gosh!what's wrong with me?? ok.. maybe i was too tired, maybe i was daydreaming, maybe i was thinking about something else... i don't know.

however, i'm so sure that everyone has the same experience like this maybe in different situation. a friend of mine confused between sugar and salt. she used salt for the coffee and sugar for the dishes. she was so nervous because that was the first time her fiancée visited her family. hahahaha! what a joke.

my brother was once confuse between meat and beef. sometime between vegetable. ok but it's normal for boys to get confuse in this matter.

moral of the story is it's ok to get confuse as long as you are not embarrass to ask and be confident.

confident tu penting walaupun salah!!

i'm freaking busy!!!!

Assalamualaikum and hello there..

i'm freaking busy this week and going to be more busy this coming weeks. however, something struck me when i read this article in iheartislam.com..

How busy we are?

SATAN'S MEETING:

(Read even if you're busy)

Satan called a worldwide convention of demons.

In his opening address he said,

"We can't keep Muslims from going to Mosque."

"We can't keep them from reading their Quran and knowing the truth.."

"We can't even keep them from forming an intimate relationship with their Allah and his messenger Muhammad."

"Once they gain that connection with Allah, our power over them is broken."

"So let them go to their Mosques; let them have their covered dish dinners, BUT steal their time, so they don't have time to develop a relationship with Allah and his messenger Muhammad."

"This is what I want you to do," said the devil:

"Distract them from gaining hold of their Allah and maintaining that vital connection throughout their day!"

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا ادْخُلُوا فِي السِّلْمِ كَافَّةً وَلَا تَتَّبِعُوا خُطُوَاتِ الشَّيْطَانِ إِنَّهُ لَكُمْ عَدُوٌّ مُبِينٌ

O you who believe! Enter perfectly in Islam (by obeying all the rules and regulations of the Islamic religion) and follow not the footsteps of Shaitan (Satan). Verily! He is to you a plain enemy.

so, next time no matter how busy your are, never forget to remember Allah and His messenger.. a wake up call for both you and me..

Obsession...

assalamualaikum..

hai..

good morning people..

i know it's monday blue..

but let's celebrate the day..

(not because i'm happy that the fact liverpool won 3-1 over ManU)

as i wake up this morning, i realize something. something quite important which is obsession.

- take a deep breathe, think for about 2 or 3 minutes. what is the thing, food maybe or maybe person that you can not life even for a second without. ok, give me your answers.

i hear PSP, FB, chocolate, make up, mcD, cloth, fashion, music, hand phone, the internet, ipod, football, love matter, cars, shopping, smoking... come on, what else people. give me some serious answer.

shoes... did i hear shoes?? are you mocking me??

(oh, ok that's me answering my own question.. ahakz!!)

if you have at least an answer for that question than you have something that you are so obsess about. some might deny the fact that it is not that bad. not really like they really can not life even a day without those things. but have you ever try not to play, take, consume, use or even think about those stuff even for a day??

have you ever try? personally i have obsession toward FB. although i've deactivate my FB account, i still think about it everytime i see my friends using their FB. hmm... that bad ha!! when ever i have the chance to look at someone FB, i'll read all the status and comments. hahahaha.... i'm obsess with FB!!!

a friend of my is so crazy about bling - bling stuff. doest matter whether it's necklace, watch or a hair ban. if it's glittering, blinking she'll definitely buy it.

to know more about obssession, you can read from this blog.

how to handle obsession?

hmm.. me, myself still looking for the cure to my obsession. so, if anyone have the answer, do tell me ok!

Geng Jalan- Jalan: Rawang + Genting

assalamualaikum..
this post is a bit late due to technical problem.
my mr. adviser aka sasapik did not want to give me the picture.
he asks me to take it from the fb.
didn't he knows that i dont have my fb anymore??!!
ok.. here's my memoir in Genting
(kredit to kema J)

venue: kuo - tmn tun teja - mcdonald - genting
transport: CLK (cute little kancil)
company: sasapik & ummi
mood: extremely happy!!!!

my favourite: ribena without ice

miss ummi.. happy and excited!

half of the food that went into our stomach...

GENTING!!!

we are so unlucky because on our way up, it was raining heavily..

so we decide to go and play indoor games..

go inside the pavilion and look around..

but the best part is there's fog.. so we kinda feel like we are in oversea... (motipp!)

i was freaking cold at that time..

girls day out.... ahakz.. ok, fine buddy day out!!

yippeee....

scrumptious!!!

still wanna eat those cookies n muffin although i'm already full with mcD..

muka teruja aku...

waaa.. obvious giler x??!!

candy lover!!

lolipop....

i felt really happy that day after two days of hatred and stress. really glad for everything that happen day. how i wish this moment never ends... glad i decided to follow you guys.

thanks and a lot of heart for you guys!!!