Monday, April 4, 2011

appearance versus reality.....

The more you do for others without expectation of return, the more you'll get back from the most unexpected sources.
Brian Tracy


look can be deceiving.. that what i've learn from a doll's house.

yesterday i read about suicide. hmmmm... it made me think a lot.

there's days i wish i didn't have to face anybody.
there's days i wish i'm a missing person.
there's days i wish i didn't know certain person.
there's days i wish i can simply unfriend certain people.
there's days i wish i can undone my act.
there's days i wish everything is pure.
there's days i wish i can took back what i've said.

but i woke up everyday with no regret. why?
because of the story of this girl

she loves to cheer people up. she loves to cook for her friends. she always find a way to make them happy. she always lend her ears to people. she finds as many quote as she can to encourage people. she tries to be as patient as she can when facing problem. she does not curse or at least cover her cursing words. she tries to understand people. she cherish people who love her. she always talks and talk and talk all the time. she always loves to laugh. she tries not to complain so much.



yup! she's a drama queen because she acts pretty well.

because only she knows how she really felt. she's fragile physically and emotionally. she's also afraid of uncertainty. she can easily been hurt by people around her especially by friend who assume themselves as friend. it is hard for her to think clearly when she's stress out. she has nobody to cry to, share her problems, to cheer her up. she has nobody to hold on to and even to turn to. she can't express her feeling well as no word is good enough to show exactly how she felt.

she doesn't want people to worry about her. she told everyone that she is OK. she always look so happy even when she is facing problems. only she knows all the pains and rains she has to go through. nobody knows how broken  inside she is and how empty she feels. she keeps on counting tomorrow to be a better day. she's the one who realize that the everything have never change. her prays everyday is that she can bear with the purposelessness of her life.


hold on girl. there will be a happy ending for you.



“Don't go for the looks, it can be quite deceiving. Don't go for wealth, even that fades away -- go for someone who makes you smile because only a smile makes a dark day seem bright. Hope you find that person.”


Sunday, April 3, 2011

masih aku terasa....

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control."

- Unknown



assalamualaikum and hello there...

ok, bila hangpa tahu member ke, anak menakan hang ke, jiran ke, pak mertua hang ke atau sape - sapa je la yang ang friend dekat facebook sakit, ape yang ang buat mula - mula?
tanya dia sakit apekan?

opppsss.... kalau tu la yang mula - mula korang buat, korang memang jend0l!

pastu tanya macam ner boleh jadi macam nie?

double jend0l!!!


nape miss Q kata korang jend0l?? 
reason dia... weeee dia bukan doctor la. mana nak tau!
hahaha... nampak soalan- soalan yang kita tanya pada orang sakit tu macam kita nie menyibuk je kan. macam reporter tak bergaji tak pon polis pencen. tapi sedarkah kita kadang - kadang soalan tu wat kita rasa macam disayangi. ' hey! someone do realy care about me!' 

aku tak tau la orang lain tapi bila orang yang dop baik @ kureng nak mesra dengan aku tiba-tiba tanya aku dah sihat ke belum, macam mana sakit? dah baik ke... aku jadi macam terharu. giler babe! dia notice rupanya aku sakit. aku ingat lagi kata- kata puan ros ' bila kita sakit nie la kita perlukan belaian dan perhatian paling banyak'. sebab time nie la nak manja-manja! motipp!!

bila kawan rapat, geng sendiri pon dop antar message, dop tanya khabar kita guane sebagai manusia tipu kalau kita tak terasa. ok, fine alasan tak de kredit (walaupon dah lapuk tetap aku terima) tapi bila kita dah jumpa orang tu takkan la kita tak boleh tanya a simple question like "so, how??" or " how are you?" hmmm... kalau soalan yang senang tu pon dop boleh tanya memang berat nanang la! mu memang dop layak jadi kawan.... gi jalan ketoyong pastu tunggu bas langgar mu!

tanya khabar orang sekeliling. the question wether that particular person nak jawap ke tak tu terpulang pada tuan punya badan. sama ada dia nak marah ke hapa, tu up to them. tapi tanya baik - baik. kalau dia jawap marah - marah, kat0k je pakai gladiator stiletto! habis citer!

alang- alang tu datang la melawat. bawak buah- buah ke, kasut ke.... hahahah!

pesanan dari yang masih terasa.............. 

Saturday, April 2, 2011

today's lesson: perseverence

It is not a question of whether you 'have what it takes,' but of whether you take the gifts you have - they are plenteous - and share them with all the world.
Neale Donald Walsch







people will always tell you that you'll never know what you was made of until life knocks you down. well guess what??!! they are pretty damn right about it. I've learned a lot this few weeks.

1. never expect everyone to understand you when you dont even want to understand other.
2. as life knock you down, life will always find it's way to make you alive again. just hold on and stay strong.
3. some friends are made to ruin your life while only a few will hold your hand and make you feel like there's a place in someone heart you actually belong.
4. never underestimate the power of helping hand, sincere smile and a single thought.




















5. i have move on. ignore the old, hateful, painful and meaningless pass. my book is still unwritten.
6. sick and tired of drama.
7. some words are better left unsaid!


yup. my renovation day has arrive. thank god!
i've move on. some might think that i'm running from reality but i'm not. facing it is easier compare to running from it. trust me. once you face the true, you'll feel relieve!

it's time for me to face the world with smile. :-)


Friday, April 1, 2011

GERD?? who's that pokemon...

what is GERD?
it has nothing to do with steven gerard or gerard pique. it 's has been confirmed that i've GERD. so i wanna share with you about GERD.


What is GERD?

Gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD) is a more serious form of gastroesophageal reflux (GER), which is common. GER occurs when the lower esophageal sphincter (LES) opens spontaneously, for varying periods of time, or does not close properly and stomach contents rise up into the esophagus. GER is also called acid reflux or acid regurgitation, because digestive juices—called acids—rise up with the food. The esophagus is the tube that carries food from the mouth to the stomach. The LES is a ring of muscle at the bottom of the esophagus that acts like a valve between the esophagus and stomach.
When acid reflux occurs, food or fluid can be tasted in the back of the mouth. When refluxed stomach acid touches the lining of the esophagus it may cause a burning sensation in the chest or throat called heartburn or acid indigestion. Occasional GER is common and does not necessarily mean one has GERD. Persistent reflux that occurs more than twice a week is considered GERD, and it can eventually lead to more serious health problems. People of all ages can have GERD.



Symptoms

More common symptoms are:
  • Feeling that food may be left trapped behind the breastbone
  • Heartburn or a burning pain in the chest (under the breastbone)
    • Increased by bending, stooping, lying down, or eating
    • More likely or worse at night
    • Relieved by antacids
  • Nausea after eating
Less common symptoms are:
  • Cough or wheezing
  • Hiccups
  • Hoarseness or change in voice
  • Regurgitation of food

  • Treatment

    To prevent heartburn, avoid foods and beverages that may trigger your symptoms. For many people, these include:
    • Alcohol
    • Caffeine
    • Carbonated beverages
    • Chocolate
    • Citrus fruits and juices
    • Tomatoes
    • Tomato sauces
    • Spicy or fatty foods
    • Full-fat dairy products
    • Peppermint
    • Spearmint
    If other foods regularly give you heartburn, avoid those foods, too.
    Also, try the following changes to your eating habits and lifestyle:
    • Avoid bending over or exercising just after eating
    • Avoid garments or belts that fit tightly around your waist
    • Do not lie down with a full stomach. For example, avoid eating within 2 - 3 hours of bedtime.
    • Do not smoke.
    • Eat smaller meals.
    • Lose weight if you are overweight.
    • Reduce stress.
    • Sleep with your head raised about 6 inches. Do this by tilting your entire bed, or by using a wedge under your body, not just with normal pillows.
    Over-the-counter antacids may be used after meals and at bedtime, although they do not last very long. Common side effects of antacids include diarrhea or constipation.







Saturday, March 26, 2011

earth hour!!

Malam yang dingin, tak ade electric due to earth hour.. 
first and foremost nak tanya..
korang support tak earth hour?
ke korang tak tau pon bila earth hour??
hmmm... adik aku yang jend0l pon tau, tak kan korang tak tau!!!


Aku pon habiskan masa dengan tengok video dalam handphone aku. Sumpah aku dah tengok video yang sama dekat sepuloh ribu kali..
Adalah standard charted untuk aku termenung and berangan. Mama pon cakap berangan tu tak salah. ( ptut aku suka berangan!) ok2.. Main point aku kat sini. Tibe - tibe aku dapat kesedaran. Aku memang selalu lambat bab2 dapat kesedaran nie. Should slap my own face! Ok.. Reality check once again....

Tak ada gunanya kita memikirkan tetang orang yang tak pernah memikirkan tentang kita. Tak ade gunanya mengimpikan sesuatu yang sudah pasti bukan milik kita....

Akan tetapi...

Kita tidak akan pernah tahu apa yang akan terjadi pada hari esok jika kita berhenti hari ini... Berhenti mencinta...

                        
But like what i've told my mr. Adviser, sasapik..
It's about time i let go..
Let go of the feeling..
Accept that it just doesn't meant to be mine.

Siang seakan malam buatku..
Pelangi pon berwarna kelam buatku...

Friday, March 25, 2011

left no man behind...

Just now i watched hawaii five-o.


 Not because of macgarreth ok! Macgarret said a line that really trigger something in me. This month really prove something. I am a bad friend and group member. My partner have to do our assignment all by herself. I left my group to present by themselves. My friends have to carry my stuff. Send me back home a few time. Bring me to the hospital. Watch me puke! What else i didn't do??

Sigh...

No man is an island and leave no man behind.
 
That should be my motto from now on. Then i keep on thinking. I've i done for them? I've never done anything to deserve good, loyal and caring friends like them. Salute and a big round of applouse for my friends.

Aargh... Right now i love you guys more than i love myself!!

Aargh..


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