pewaris budaya bangsa

the distance between your dream and reality is called DISCIPLINE...

assalamualaikum and hello there,

never in a million years i ever dream to be where i'm today but hey, things happen for a reason right!

learn new things,
meet new people,
evolve...

i'm loving it...

thank you, ALLAH. for the pain, for the opportunity, for everything you gave me. for the things i never imagine i would be. alhamdulillah.

starting over

assalamualaikum and hello there,


pergh... checking the last date i posted something here i say that i've made a lot of progress. usually i write when i'm sad or there's a lot of things going in my mind. as for now. everything is smooth and steady.


life is as i want it to be.
me? i'm happy.
status hati? sudah dimiliki... lol

setahun yang aku lalui dari tarikh habis belajar untill today banyak yang aku belajar.well, at least i learn to let go.paling penting hidup nie simple sangat. if you choose to be happy, happiness will come your way. buat something simple2. fikir pon simple2. simple is better.

aku tak sure tentang esok. tapi hari ini tiada lagi regrets.

manusia

“Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.” 
― Dr. Seuss



dah lama tak update blog. bukan sebab kekangan masa tapi kekangan perasaan. waktu marah tak elok bersumpah dan bila gembira pulak jangan berjanji. ( learn it the hard way!).. kebelakangan ini aku mengkaji diri. aku terlalu mengharap! betul..

- mengharap difahami
- mengharap disayangi
- mengharap diperlukan.
- mengharap bulan jatuh ke riba..

dan harapan aku sendiri yang membuatkan aku kecewa. jadi kebelakangan nie aku selalu bisikkan azimat nin ' jangan terlalu risau dengan benda yang tak pasti'

my final sem in my final year cost me my friendship. hilang seorang kawan sejujurnya menyakitkan. bihaa cakap yang aku terlalu berpegang pada kenangan. well, macam orang yang tak mampu melihat, bila segala-galanya kelam kita hanya mampu berpandukan instinct kita. aku pon macam tu. perasaan berubah tetapi memori itu tetap sama. jadi seperti orang buta yang kehilangan tongkatnya, aku berpaut pada memori yang terkadang hanya menyesakkan nafas aku.

setiap malam aku tanya diri aku pelbagai soalan and i often fell asleep at the question of what can i do to change it. hari ini aku dapat jawapannya. nothing. yup absolutely nothing. aku tetap orang yang sama yang dia kenal dulu kerana perasaan yang berubah aku tak mampu lakukan ape2. jadi aku move on. kisah aku masih.. mungkin panjang... cerita di bab yang lepas aku jadikan pegangan. i dont held my breath hoping for you to come back to my life. was planning to do so. if you ever wonder why. it's because you never look at me when you walk away.

it was never a mistake. always a lesson !


hey stranger,
as easy as it may seem for you to let me go, please let me be happy.
thanks for loving me.
thanks for the little ray of sunshine even for just for awhile.
i have 1 question though;
are you too important, too busy to reach for me?

part time vs full time?

When someone treats you like you're just one of many options, help them narrow their choice by removing yourself from the equation.

Sometimes you have to try not to care, no matter how much you do. Because sometimes you can mean almost nothing to someone who means so much to you. It's not pride- it's self respect. 

Don't give part-time people a full-time position in your life. Know your value and what you have to offer, and never settle for anything less than what you deserve.

so? just carry on.....

pricetag

assalamualaikum and hello there....


ever wonder how much you worth?
nope like seriously...
yes, there r no price for human life but in the eye of someone what are you to them.
how much they care for you is actually your price.

' when we asked for someone's favor, that's when we know how much we worth for them'

a friend of mine share her thought. we know if someone really care for us if we ask them to help us and

 even when they really busy 

or just woke up from sleep 

or cant really help 

but still willing to help than that person really care for you. 

WOW..

now i know why.... why i love them. cause i do mean something to somebody. 

rindu terlerai...

assalamualaikum and hello there..


typing this entry dengan hati berbunga...

jumpa adam dekat kl sentral... yuhooo... happy giler kot!! hahahaha...
ok fine. bila aku bagi tahu semua orang everybody was like "aqil, adam je pon" 

hello, just so you know i miss him ok! and for me, he's a good guy. enough said!


nota-kaki-gajah: korang jeleskan sebenarnya.. ngaku je la korang jeles!!! hahahah...



adam,
impian aku nk jumpa ko before aku abis study dah terlaksana. stay the same. i may not understand what you did n why u did it but i'll always support you...

sorry seems to be the hardest word.

life becomes easier when you learn to accept the apology you will never got.... (robert brault)


well i've forgive you.but when u did what u did, i was heartbroken. 

removing people from ur fb @ twitter @ instagram @ ym is co childish.. i rather delete my account!

when u r online, i just hope u send me a simple message asking why we be like we r now. but that's just me. well, it's always me.

 

starngers know i wont we mad for a long time why wouldn't u? for me it's not that u didnt know. u rather look beyond it. for that; i'm sorry. 

p/s: yup this 1 is really dedicated to you!

doa & impian

teringat conversation dgn mama last week,

 tiba2 mama tanya
'angah dh besar nak jadi ape?'
aku macam  '. . .'  what??
'ha la, biar doa mama dengan impian angah selari'
'ma angah dah 24 kot! baru nak tanye'
'heheheh.. ma ingt angah belum 20'
aku hampa...


ok, aku blh terima most people say i'm not mature. but from my own mum. like seriously!!!

ma, insyallah sepanjang hidup yang singkat nie angah akan tunaikan hasrat mama. biar payah biar pon apa yang mama nak bukan yang angah nak. sebab sebahagian besar kebahagian angah terbuat dari doa mama. then i just realize. no matter how much i've grew up, i'm still my mum little girl. always was, always is, always will be....

time out...

hari ni kali kedua aku nangis sebab marcell.
aku tak mintak banyak.
i just need a time out.

hati aku yang terluka mira. memang senang cakap tapi aku yang rasa! it suck to be second for the person u put first. aku selalu yang last. selalu yang ditinggalkan, dilupakan. takpe.. memang salah aku. selalu pon salah aku.



i'm just a sucker for love. coz no matter what people did to me, i never walk away though i always say i will.

bila aku dah dewasa...

Every year on your birthday, you get a chance to start new. 



assalamualaikum and hello there,

hari ni umur aku genap 24 tahun. nothing special if you ask me. i'm just the same old girl. just a bit wiser, a bit smarter. been through a lot of pain and heart break. lie a lot and love many too...

makin aku dewasa makin sesak minda dengan pemikiran dunia.
bila aku bercerita aku mula dengan ' nnti bila aku dh besar...'
terasa macam baru umur 15 plak!

untuk yang ingat and bersusah payah untuk call, sms, post and tweet; thanks! love you more next year!
untuk yang diingati di awal usia ini: you guys are always in my heart...
my wish? i just wanna be happy...


You know you're getting old when the candles cost more than the cake. 
Bob Hope 

tikus membaiki labu

assalamualaikum and hello there,

bagun pagi emosi tak stabil gara2 1 message via FB.
hangin trus!

Cik Haliqa

6 hours ago via Mobile

How can u solve a problem without knowing what cause it. It's like going for surgery without doing the diagnos first. #meaningless..

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then i text mr.AB.. biasa la, dia je yg paham klau kes nie.

dia bg advise.

the reason why it is still hard for you to be happy is because you keep holding on to things that make you sad. just forget it. enjoy your holiday. 


he's right.


kan dari dulu aku pilih untuk bahagia. hmm..... maka berbahagia la...

     

hi hi bye bye...

assalamualaikum and hello there..

menghitung waktu.
betul apa yang dikata;

there's a hell in hello 
and there's a good in goodbye...

aku pergi untuk kembali.. pergi dari sisi students tersayang, kembali kepada keluarga terchenta!

tak sangka dah 4 bulan bergelar warga sm3kb nie.. macam2 yang aku dh belajar. 
sayu rasa nak melepaskan apa yang kami orang dah ada tapi what to do.....


pesan buat adik2:

ape pon yang korang buat, cikgu sentiasa doakan yang terbaik untuk korang.  

kawin...

plan yang paling common untuk final year students ialah kawin ( matluthfi90)

masa end of my practicum that day, students mostly pesan " cikgu, kawen jangan lupa jemput"

~ memang aku buat majlis untuk aku dengan dia je pon!

kawan2 semakin ramai menamatkan zaman bujang meninggalkan aku tertanya2.. 

aku bila lagi? ~sigh~

kalau skrg kamu sdang memperbaiki diri, insyallah jodoh mu juga berbuat bnda yg sama. 
klau kamu sdang menjaga hati, dia pon sdang mnjaga hati.
janji allah itu pasti.
(teringat ceramah fatimah syarha: apa yg juga yg kte buat, jodoh kte buat bnde yg sme)

aku tunggu dia.

yup si dia.

diorang cakap aku tunggu putera raja.

oh, tidak..

i'm not waiting for a prince. i'm just waiting for a guy. normal, plain guy who think i'm his princess..

so mr.A.. whatever you are doing right now. i'm waiting. but dont take too many time to come by my side!

 

life as a teacher...

assalamualaikum and hello there...

tak semua orang suka kita.

mentera yang aku acap kali ulang saat kesabaran berulang kali diuji.
betul.. memang betul..
sebab bukan semua benda pasal diri kita, kita suka..

lalu aku tetapkan hati, lapangkan pemikiran. mungkin dalam sedar @ tidak aku menyakiti. jiwa yang rapuh, hati yang ampuh.

biarkan.
bukan aku tak peduli. tapi aku lelah.
lelah acap kali memberi peluang untuk yang tak pandai menghargai.

merajuk,
satu sifat baru yang aku amalkan disini.

jadi betullah.
kehidupan itu guru.
guru yang kejam.
memberi ujian dahulu
kemudian pelajaran.
namun,
dari kehidupan aku belajar sesuatu
sesuatu diluar buku
belum ada seorang guru yang bisa
menjawap tanya soalku
kecuali kehidupan.
dan kerna itu aku hidup
untuk belajar sesuatu
sebelum kembali
menghadap tuhanku...

~ams~

melawan kesepian....

all the little things that annoyed you so much is the things that you'll miss when they are gone....

assalamualaikum and hello there.

ini post emo!hahahahahaha...

the whole 1 week, i learn how to fight my own loneliness. starting to miss my friends...
it's true that we can never go back in time but i learned that i'll be better in time. i learn how to be strong but it does break and torn me apart when i realize that i been replace. what to do..... human nature!

semoga kepergianmu, tak akan merubah apapun
semoga mampu ku lawan kesepianku...

dear gjj: 
i may looked like i dont care but you guys matter. it's true....

bila youtuber bergabung!

terbaek la mentol pecah...
nek pecah kepala aku gelak!
semua fav youtuber aku ada!!
cik eunhyuk oppa, kyo la... mmg best!!

back to basic..

assalamuaikum and hello there...
 "Aslamtu wajhiaLillah" - 'Aku berserah diri pada Allah' ..

sejujurnya aku suka pengalaman aku praktikum nie. so far konklusinya?

back to basic

yup.... whatever that we do, we must remember one thing; remember that we used to be in that positions. 

~ before we become teacher, we were once a students.

~ before we become smart, we used to be ignorance...

never forget to look back where we come from. like malay proverb ' dimana bumi dipijak, disitu langit dijunjung'...

hmmmm..... biarlah!

whatever it is, i just wanna enjoy my practicum....

those who trying to mess with me, TTMH!!!!

nie student ke cikgu?

assalamualaiku and hello there...

tadi aku masuk kelas relief.

aku masuk pakai track-suit dengan tshirt.( bajet cikgu sport science!!)
aku diri dekat depan kelas.
pastu student bagun bagi salam.
tapi ada student nie tengok aku pelik.
macam aku alien baru turun dari marikh.
lalu bermulalah dialog antara dua makhluk...

budak: (dengan muka pelik) nie student ke cikgu?
aku: ha?? awak tak nampak ke name tag saya nie?
budak: student form 4 kan (muka confident habis!)
aku: form 6 la....

cis..
muka aku yang garang aras 8 nie tak layak jadi cikgu ke???

the bride..

assalamualaikum and hello there.


the bride


i wonder if ever
i will be a bride
with a white lace gown
standing in front of everyone
looking beautiful
because someone
love me
that much.

dulu masa zaman sekolah, aku selalu cakap 'bila la nak kawen nie??' ok, fine. statement budak2 PG 13 memang macam tu.


however, as i grow up, i started to think. when will i fall in love?


~sigh~

dalam setiap puisi cinta, aku hanya mampu menuliskan perasaanku sahaja. perasaanmu entah bagaimana...?

0nly rainbow after rain..

assalamualaikum and hello there..

hujan dah berhenti,
dan aku lihat pelangi,
bukan di kaki langit.
tapi dalam hati...